Heal Nick

Dear Nick, Peter and Lucy,
This evening I spoke with Paul D. over the phone and he pointed me to this site. I feel a little less helpless now that I can write a few words to you and your folks. Cindy’s and my thoughts and prayers go out to all 3 of you daily.

Ourt love to you and your wonderful parents.

Hutch

Nothing earth shattering to report. Nicholas is the same & spending the day in the therapy ("float") chair. He’s looking very smug & comfortable. I have to confess Lucy & I took an early break to meet friends of friends who had driven down from Timaru (2 hours north of Dunedin) to meet us & treat us to lunch. Right now is “rest period” at the hosiptal. We’re beginning to understand Nicholas’ cycles & this appears to be a rest day, after yesterday’s tilt table.

The best address to send anything to Nicholas is:

Peter & Lucy Robbins
c/o Woodlands Village #311
594 Great King Street
Dunedin, New Zealand

Cheers. Peter & Lucy

Nick - I am a friend of Lucy and Peter and have not had the pleasure of meeting you. Back home, we are encouraged by your progress. Keep it up and when you get back to the States, maybe we will have a chance to meet. I understand New Zealand is a fantastic country. We hope to travel there sometime in the near future.

You are fortunate to have Peter and Lucy there with you. They are incredibly strong and supportive parents. Why don’t you surprise them soon, wake up and say hi? That would be a great way to start off the New Year. Take care. Denny Hall

Big Nick,
You are into tequila and garlic! You’ll have to share some recipes with Travis when you come out of the Fifth Element organic repair light tub (that’s how I just imagined you, except you don’t look much like Milla Jovovich).
I on the other hand can’t wait to see your movies – especially the one you will make about what it was to be out there. I bet your adventures hitchhiking on the omniplasmic highway are so deep and mind blowing and heavy, bro! that if you give us (the ones down here) any part in this movie at all it’ll be the comic relief part – the way we were fretting and bumming over you and shedding a tear once in a while, pretending it’s the wasabi. A lot of sushi we had to gulp down these days just to look cool and not show how much we miss you (but that doesn’t compare to live frogs, I bet.)
Well, I guess now’s the time to tell you we don’t like OPEN your site in our house, our computer is constantly on so we have your angel mug on the screen ALL THE TIME. I greet and fare well to Travis with news of you, and the other night when your Glasgow scale had gone up to 8, I ran upstairs at 5 a.m. and jumped on the bed to announce it. Sorry I woke him, but he wasn’t crinky at all, he said this was the best dream he could possibly have! He’s often playing music to you in his head.
Talking of music, please ask your parents for a mailing address because there’s this amazing healing instrument I have that might do you good. I’ll try to explain it. Long ago, before the piano was invented, the way the intervals between notes worked was a tiny - but very important - bit different. Each tone in an octave was mechanically derived by shortening the string that rings out the base note, the Doh. The string was shortened according to a very precise ratio which Pythagoras set up a whole secret school in order to study, claiming it was given to people as a gift from Apollo (back to the good old healing Sun again). It was the same ratio that Michelangelo used to create his Golden Mean drawings (you know, the naked guy with his arms and legs spread), the same ratio that encodes all the fractal spirals in nature, like sunflowers, sea shells, pinecones, cauliflower and even Italian broccoli (being the chef your brother claims you are, I though you’d appreciate that). These were the times when music was a well-known cure for everything. Rewind back a little further, and these were the times of Greek mythology when sound was used to move objects, freeze stones in mid air, tame animals and bring back the dead.
Dude, we’re talking serious powers here.
Think the effects from the Matrix. Think: Nick, you’re the One.
So there’s this company in Boulder, Now and Zen, which makes a tuning-fork sort of chime that is based on the original “natural scale”. It rings the magic Perfect Fifth and you literally hear the spiral go woof-woof. Many wise folks have spent their lives studying the difference in health and emotional intelligence that this tiny move in the intervals produces. It’s amazing. It totally tickles your brain. With it we’ll be able to rewind time for you, to the age when music was like a miracle bath in the healing waters of Lourdes.
So, Big Nick, ask your folks there to give me a snail-mail address and I’ll send them this Magic Lyre (it’s even shaped like an angel’s harp) to ring when they pray with you. And hey, I want to have reason to wake people up at 5 a.m. some time again, okay?
Take care and start doing crossword puzzles soon

Love and tickles

Dear Nick,
I’ve passed on this magnificent website to your former fellow “Lodgers". It look like your making great progress and we are thankful that your family is there to support you on this journey of sorts. We think of you every day especially during these BIG snowstorms. I still remember a couple of Januarys ago when I came outside to see you loading your blue van with your windsurfer! This weather wouldn’t keep you down a bit. I’ve been reading a magnificent book about people’s passions and in the beginning is a quote that made me think of you.
“To be happy you must have taken the measure of your powers, tasted the fruits of your passion, and learned your place in the world". After living together in the same house for 5 years, I saw you live this and never got the chance to tell you how much I envied your spirit and drive. Please get better. We miss you. Elizabeth and David

Dear Deborah,
While I don’t believe that dreams are necessarily
clairvoyant, I’ve had a few in my life that were, so I’m
telling you about it. Consider it, at the least, as a
hopeful sign: we (our two families)were all sitting around
chatting as we so often do. Many of our children were
there, including Nicholas, who was lying back in an
armchair in his coma, when suddenly he opened his eyes, sat
up straight and looked around. At first, I thought nothing
of it, then, remembering his coma and injuries, waited
eagerly to see his response as others began to talk to him.
He did not reply but got up, walked over to Odo and began
talking very naturally to him.
Then I woke up.

Hi to Nicks family and friends. I am sending this email at the request of Peter and Lucy. I was in Queenstown on the morning of the accident with my family and we were heading out of Queenstown towards Milford Sound for the day, it is a 5.5hr drive so we left early as we were on our way for a cruise booking. We were driving past when we saw Nick lying on the ground with a couple of people rushing over to him at that time. I managed to stop and get across the road, luckily as you all probably know there was a doctor from Australia who was attending to Nick at this point, so I just did what I could and moved the branches from the road so that paramedics could get in when they arrived. It was a difficult day for me, as when I left we still continued on our way to Milford however all I could think of was him and would he survive. We had no access to news broadcasts and did not see any news until the next day. I found this website last week and have been in contact with Peter and Lucy through Colin (thanks), and would like to say that I think Nick is a incredible fighter and it is lovely to see a sneak peak into Nicks real life and replace my first image of Nick into one of a lovely young man. I will follow his progress through this site, and think it is wonderful that he has such wonderful support from America from his family and friends. Cheers Andrea (Kiwi living in Australia)

Dear N,

I have had vivid dreams of you the past two nights and I just wanted to thank you for stopping in. You looked great and we had a few laughs (one at Pamela’s expense I am afraid). I know you have a lot of other people to visit but please drop by again soon – I estimate that I’m in REM between 5-6 a.m. EST.

love,
K

Monday in Dunedin & it’s already been a good one for Nicholas. He was placed on a “tilt table” this morning & “tilted” in 5 stages to an upright standing position. At each position his blood pressure was taken to be sure there were no drastic changes. The PT advised that blood pressure often gets too low when a patient is tilted for the 1st time. Not so with Nicholas. His remained very steady throughout the exercise. He was in the upright position for 6 minutes. This will be repeated tomorrow, for a longer period. Lucy & I were assisting (minority roles) & Nicholas was looking at us rather skeptically but with a somewhat amused expression. We wonder what he’s thinking & can’t wait for the time he’s able to relate these experiences. We’re encouraged & everyone should be, as well. Peter & Lucy

Nick, Peter and Lucy: It’s Sunday here in Manchester and our thoughts are with you. Reading the updates on Nick’s progress and everyone’s letters of love and support remind us that we’re never alone in times of need. Not a day goes by without us thinking of you. We pray for Nick’s continued progress and know that we love you and miss you very much. Much love, Nancy and Jim

Hi Nick, it’s your brother Colin checking from Hostel 540 in San Francisco. I figured you’d appreciate an update. Not even sure where to start there is so much to report. First some positive things:

1. Your subletter, Volker, has not stolen all of our stuff, burned the place down or otherwise vandalized it. So far it has been a pleasure living with him (but don’t you worry I’m watching him like a hawk).
2. Your car has not been broken into. We all know what an impenetrable fortress that our garage is not.
3. Not sure if this is good or bad but you are still receiving a small country’s worth of mail each day. I’m doing my best to stay on top of it.
4. We had a little get together in your honor last friday. It was a nice intimate mix of burning man crew, my crew, and even a couple of people that haven’t met you yet. Rest assured we didn’t get through the night without a good soak in the hottub. I’ve also replenished the stock of tequila - Patron of course. I forced a shot of the stuff down, but I’m still not sure that I’m going to become a fan of the stuff without some coaching/coaxing from you.

A couple of casualties:

1. The plants have taken a little bit of a nose dive. Not really surprising, but I finally gave up on that joke of an orchid that I drowned last year.
2. The network is still a disaster. I’m sure you’re glad not to be dealing with that at present. And the kiosk computer is still on the brink of meltdown.
3. The porch railing. I think they are finally going to fix that dry rot. I list this as bad news because I’ve really enjoyed all ot the fun we’ve had planning how to survive the fall if it were to give way. Maybe it’s for the best, I feel a little less optimistic about the “jump for the palm tree” stategy anyway.

Some culinary reflections that have occured to me of late:

1. Garlic. What is your week’s supply of the stuff for you has now turned into a lifetime supply for me. I may try to hire a moving van to truck some of it out. I remember the first time we cooked some spaghetti sauce together. I was thrilled that you gave your stamp of approval to the garlic press. Apparently something to do with the yield - and skin recovery mechanism. Lord knows we can’t afford to waste so much as a gram of the stuff when we have only 100 cloves left. I digress – I’m not sure what sort of prestidigitation you employed, but before I knew it you has snuck 5+ tears into the sauce. Mmm, mmm good – vampire’s delight.
2. Olive Oil: You are the master. For anyone else reading this you’ll need to purchase a device called a Misto. It is a pump action olive oil sprayer. It was one of the first purchases you made after moving in. You looked at me like I was freak for not having one already. I am now a complete convert, used it this morning in fact.
3. Cookware: The second purchase you made was a rubber spatula. I realize now that the metal one was almost criminal. I am now not able to stir any pot using anything metal thanks to you. It is like fingernails on the chalkboard, an insult to the gods to risk damaging a good teflon coating with a fork. You saw me do this and the look on your face was like I had stuck the fork in your eye.

Anyways, big brother, hope that this letter hasn’t been completely draining. I contemplated rambling on a bit longer, but I think I leave it for a future installment. How I wish you could take a little time-out on the coma. I can’t imagine anyone I would like to talk to more about your recovery. It is exactly the type of conversation that I have the best time having with you. Also, you owe me a little bit more roomate time, it is amazing how effectively we have been able to coordinate not being in the apartment at the same time. I will see you soon, brother, until then I trust you are working things out. I have never known you to be early at anything (especially movies) so take your time,

All of my love,
Colin

Hi N,

I have something extraordinary to share with you. As you know, I’m back in Boston trying to struggle through school. So far it’s going fine. The sun is shining on this city covered in snow and it’s a lovely day. One of my friends from school, Hiro (like Super Hero) just came to visit me with a wonderful gift. He told me that he wanted to stop by and give me something that would help me get through the semester, but in reality bro..it’s really something for you and for all of us. Hiro is from Japan and he and his girlfriend made 32 oragami cranes and he strung them together so they hang from one string and are stacked on top of each other (I’ll get a digital photo to you soon). He said that in Japan it is tradition to make these cranes in order to bring luck and, most importantly, for recovery. Often the Japanese will do this for luck before a big sporting event or if someone is sick. Traditionally thousands of cranes are made, but Hiro and Satoko (his girlfriend) decided on 32 in order to represent all the people in my class who are thinking of you and wishing you a full recovery. Obviously, I’m represented in that number as well.
I totally started crying when he presented me with this gift. I was speechless. The cranes are BEAUTIFUL. Each one is made out of different colored paper, each of brilliant designs. I’m not sure if you remember, but last year Mum & Dad gave each of us a paper crane ornament they had bought from the Peobody Essex Museum. I have mine hanging by my bed now. Anyway, if you can invision one of those…well multiply that by 32 and that is the brilliant display that I now have in your honor. I will hang it by our fireplace in the apartment (right underneath your photo) so myself and everyone who comes to the house can see the beauty of you and the cranes and think peaceful healing thoughts.

To say you bring out the best in people (before the accident and since) is an understatement. Words cannot express the effect you have had on all of us…including strangers. I am so honored to have such an fanstastic big bro. I’m so proud of you…I know that sitting up is hard work. Keep smirking at Dad…you’re showing him what you’re capapble of. Tomorrow is a big day with the tilt table so rest up and don’t be be afraid to rest after. I can’t wait to hear how it goes, I know it will be hard work. You are truly inspirational. I love you!!
All my love and confidence,
Pooh

Dear Nicholas,
I remember how frustrated you used to make your father when you were young. You had such a strong curiosity about how things like radios and lawn mower engines worked, that you would take them apart. Early on, the problem was that you couldn’t reassemble them. But, as we all know, it didn’t take long for that to change. In fact, whenever we had a mechanical or electical problem, the first thing we’d say was, “where’s Nicholas?”
I’m not trying to equate engines and radios to your brain, Nicholas, but I feel the process is somewhat the same. That fall did a lot of “disassembling". Your amazing progress since then shows me that you’re putting things back together again. This is your biggest test yet so take your time. We will be very patient.
With love,
Ted

Dear Nicholas,
You are here every minute, and hope I’ll be with you in person soon. How strong you are, and how steady to be making such progress! I’m sending you enough love to bear you up to waking, when you’re ready. And for now here’s a hug big enough to reach halfway around the world.
Love, Mum

It’s Sunday evening and another uneventful day. We don’t mind at all. Nick spent most of the day sitting in a therapy chair, taking in the view from his window. His eyes appear quite alert & at times he almost looks as though he’s smirking at all that’s around him. (He probably is!) We’re looking forward to an active week, starting tomorrow. Peter & Lucy

Dear Nick,

It’s Saturday evening and I’m sitting in my little apartment crying for you. Part of the tears are from sadness, part of them from hopefulness, and others I can’t figure where they are coming from or what they are for. I keep thinking about the time you took me out for a spin in the Triumph. We had just moved to Reservation Road, so I must have been 7 or so. I remember coming around a sandy corner on two wheels, my little body flying across the seat of the car. Then there was the time we got stuck in the mud in the graveyard. Never a dull moment with you. I remember how horrified I was when I saw the old green Ford pick-up humming up the drive at Pike School. You picked me up from lacrosse practice in that thing and I ran to the other end of the lot to avoid being seen climbing into it! We were lucky to make it home because the truck kept seizing up. Then I remember you coming home and having all your hockey equipment with you and I wanted to play hockey so badly. Same goes for your motorcycle days: I still want to ride because I thought you were so damn cool. I still want to do some vocals with your band. Do you remember? We talked about doing a rendition of Sublime’s “Summertime". Soon enough. Well, writing has dried my tears. I’m glad you have been transferred to sitting for part of the day. That’s good. I love you and I’ll write again soon.
Love,
Fiona

Dear Nick, Peter and Lucy, Warren called me about a week ago to tell me about Nick’s accident and promised to keep me posted. I have said many prayers and have thought about you all on a daily basis. Last night Warren gave me this website and I cannot tell you how wonderful it is to read about all of the great small steps and hurdles that you have accomplished Nick. So very impressive, remember that those small steps add up to giant steps eventually.
The website is a truly touching compilation of so much love and caring - those fingers pointing for a miracle - and the stars shining down with hope, determination, and the knowledge that you will come through this with your resolve, the love of your family, all who care about you and yours, as well as a terrific, caring medical team, and a wee bit of help from the big guy upstairs.
My prayers are supersizing for you, Peter and Lucy, and the rest of your loving family. Ellen

A cold January Tuesday night of four on four sticks in the middle reminds us that we’re missing some players. The goalers seem acutely aware of the numbers also. The games are played,box on box , forays into the center spaces,inevitable success and some saves along the way. Among the missing are one of our smooth skating senior statesmen and his kinetic younger self.
They compete now in the most intense game of their lives. Hopes are that the end will be as the simple sound of the siren and Zamboni,pucks placed in a bag , thoughts of refreshment and wonders of cold or hot showers. Nick,"Our line start?” for we’re all on the same team now,all white or all blue. Nick ,you may not know it ,but you are our son also. We were in the tree with you and we are standing by you now. TNHG.

Dear Nick, Peter & Lucy,
Great news from NZ! More of those positive steps! Before long “the band” will be back together! Not in my basement anymore, but somewhere. Keep up the good work and pretty soon your parents will hear those magic words “Hi Dad, Hi Lucy, Hi Mom".
Becky

Dear Nicholas,

This is Sarah, your aunt over in Malta. We have been praying for you a lot and you are in our minds and hearts. Your cousin Irene sends special prayers as well. I am diving down into where you are under the layer of sleep and asking how you are doing?, what is your news?, what are you working on now? What are you seeing? and relaxing with a laugh with you. Be happy! Here are some quotations to give you strength:

“Men who suffer not attain no perfection. The plant most pruned by the gardeners is that one which, when the harvest comes, will have the most beautiful blossoms and the most abundant fruit.
“The laborer cuts up the earth with his plow, and from that earth comes the rich and plentiful harvest. The more a man is chastened, the greater is the harvest of spiritual virtues shown forth by him. A soldier is no good general until he has been in the front of the fiercest battle and received the deepest wounds.” (’Abdu’l-Baha)

I imagine you tanned on a white bed, surrounded by many, many, many, many invisible but very tangible friends.

With love, Sarah

It’s evening on Saturday & Nick has been resting pretty much all day, recuperating from all of yesterday’s activity. He did, however, sit in the therapy chair for another 6 hours but seemed quite content getting back to the prone position around 6:00pm. This is not exciting news but part of the ultimate healing process is the occasional day of rest. Cheers. Peter & Lucy

Dear N,

Just got off the phone with Dad and L ucy and they told me that you are quite tired today due to all your activity yesterday (sitting up all day, etc.). I’m tired, too, though I haven’t done anything nearly as impressive as you did. So I am off to bed and just wanted to say goodnight, sleep tight and don’t let the you-know-what bite…..I’m also including a poem by May Sarton. It’s about falling asleep and waking up and the wonderful places we get to go in between the two. It is nice to read before bed.

For Polly, Whose Eyes are Tired

Shut your eyes then
And let us slip
Out of the city rain
Into a special ship,
Call her The Pilgrim,
Set sail and go
Over the world’s rim
To where Rousseau
Discovered a jungle
Of indigo trees,
A marvelous tangle:
Precise oranges,
Tigers with dreaming eyes,
Large and larger flowers,
Leaves of gigantic size—
Wander for hours
Under crimson sun
In a pale milky sky
With a vermilion
Lizard near by,
And over it all
The strangeness that hovers
Like a green pall,
Envelopes and covers
In a warm still suspense
All of the landscape
Like a sixth sense—
Till there is no escape,
Till in the grasses
(Two people Rousseau
Saw through his glasses
And wanted to know)
You who have shut your eyes
And I who brought you here
Are to our great surprise
Part of the atmosphere,
Part of the painter’s dream,
Of his most intent seeing
In a place where things seem
Instead of being,
No longer living, not longer mortal,
Fabulous ladies,
Unreal, immortal—
Shut then your open eyes
Let us go softly home,
Back to the sleeping ship
Over the emerald foam,
Over the edge and slip
Out of the Rousseau world
Into the world of men,
Sails all bound up and furled:
Open your eyes again.

love,
K

Dear Nick,
It is so gratifying to hear that progress is being made. We are all with you and praying for you every day. While they say that it is such adversity that can build character you already are well served with character and I can think or easier ways to build on what you already have.

We are missing you and your dad at the Tuesday Night Hockey Group. Our play has been lackluster and the life at Al’s is not the same. Your progress sounds good and we are hoping that you will be able to return to the States soon. In the meantime keep up the good work and remember that we are all working with you.
Bless you and God speed your recovery,
Sam Cabot and Deamie Helmboldt

Dear Nicholas….Sounds like yesterday was a good day for you. That is great news. A bath and shave must feel great. Reading Judy Stavis’s letter about how you touch even little kids reminded me of something from 2 summers ago. Ned (who has a friend named Nicholas whom he calls Nick-Nick)was 3 at the time. You had ben around during the day, wind surfing, I’m sure, and just hanging around with Drew,Timmy and Zan and then you stayed for supper . Later that night Ned woke up (new big bed, semi strange place) and was very worried about where everyone was. Heather re-assured him that everyone was fine, everyone was asleep. “Edie’s asleep….Daddy’s asleep….they’re fine. Birdy’s asleep…Grandy’s asleep…it’s time to go to sleep. Drew’s in his room…Timmy’s in his room…Zan is home at his house…they’re all fine…they’re all asleep. Go to sleep.” He seemed to buy that and as he was settling back down he suddenly sat bolt upright, his eyes flew open and he said “Where’s BIG Nick-Nick?” You have made an impression on everyone that has ever met you, young or old, and I know when you wake up you will continue to do the same. Take care and heal well…..with love….Joanie

Nick,

I’ve been reading everyone’s notes to you, and am overwhelmed by the depth and power of the love you’ve inspired. What a life you’re leading! I’ve always known that you’re a one-of-a-kind, and I’ve always felt lucky to know you. If it wasn’t for you, I would probably never have known that garbage disposals were illegal in New York City (I think that law has since been banished.)

You were at NYU working on a student film and needed to record a garbage disposal. Since I had a tenuous connection with filmmaking, you called me to see if I could help you out. After calling a few of my friends who lived in apartments that might have a garbage disposal (in many ways, New York is a third world country), we ended up having to go to Teresa and Mike Carroll’s house in Connecticut to record her garbage disposal. Mike got so into the project that I remember him driving his Porche around and around their little circle court, squealing the tires, slamming on the brakes, and accelerating so you could collect those sounds.

I never saw (or heard) the film you were working on, but I’m sure it was not dull. I’m still provoked by “Anathema.” You said the idea was to delve into uncomfortable areas. Well, you did that for me. Every now and then, I put the film into the DVD player and have another look. It’s such a well thought out piece, and you handled the actors beautifully. I know how difficult it is to pull out a genuine performance with inexperienced actors. They really have the ring of truth in their scenes.

I still haven’t figured out what to make of the story, but it’s a well done, well written piece that you should be very proud of.

Well, I’m at work, and I don’t want the nuns to get mad at me, so I’d better sign off for now.

I think of you constantly, and am so encouraged when I read about your progress. Keep up the good work kid, I’m looking forward to seeing you in the not-to-distant future.

All my love,

John Mac

Today the temperature is 8 below zero here, but a bright red flower has opened on your hibiscus tree. I think it is recognizing your waking up. I’m thinking of nothing but you, and I hope that in not too many days I’ll see you and you’ll see me. Sleep well for the moment, dear Nicholas. Love, Mum

It’s been a petty good day in Dunedin for Nick and the energy from Nick’s Nation at 3:00pm was felt. He started the day at a GCS score of 8 & as of 9:00pm was a 9. The big event was transferring him from his bed to a therapy chair for 5 hours. This means he was more-or-less sitting in an upright postion, allowing for better breathing & circulation. All of this is a very positive step in the prevention of infections & blood clots. We have been advised that he may spend some time on the “tilt table” on Monday. These are continued positive signs of improvement. His response to voice commands with his eyes & hands contimues to improve bit by bit & for the first time we’re seeing much more activity from his left side. Nick’s day ended with a bath & shave at 8:30pm, followed by getting a new neck brace. He was read his daily Letters to Nick & anothe chapter from Charlotte’s Web, at which time he appeared to be fast asleep. Nick did a great deal of work today & was obviously tired.

Rest well, dear son. You deserve it.

Love, Peter & Lucy

Big Nick,
Just a quick note to let you know that I/we are thinking about you everyday…all day. Jon was thrilled to hear that you enjoyed the mozart cd he sent you…in fact, we listened to it ourselves last night. Minnie and Nick, both on separate occacions, have caught me looking at your website and when they saw your picture they screamed with joy, “Hey, there’s big Nick!” Of course, they wanted to look at all the pictures of you, which i enjoyed sharing with them. Being 5 1/2 and 3 1/2, they really got a big kick out of your baby pictures and couldn’t believe it was you. It was great to hear them giggle and laugh with such innocence and happiness at the site of your face. Anyway, we are thrilled with your progress and are not at all surprised at your strength. Love you always, judy

Nicholas,
It is so exciting to hear about you taking in the warms rays of the sun and climbing up that Glascow scale. Although this may be your most challenging ascent to date, you have a world wide nation of believers sending you their encouragement, love, energy, prayers and healing light. This evening at 9 PM here in Boston, Jay and I will be a part of the Nicholas Nation event, all believers coming together as one, sending you all of our good energy, helping you to heal.
I think of you every day, over and over. I have your website open while I work and eagerly read each new posting, continued to be awed by the power of love that you inspire from all corners of the earth. What struck me today so clearly was that I am supposed to be helping you but it is quite the opposite. You are across the world and as you gently rest and heal, you are helping me to be a better person. There have been so many times recently when I have surprised myself by asking, “What would Nicholas do?” The resolution that I reach after asking that question is always far superior to the first route I would have taken. Thank you Nicholas.
Our boys, Seamus (25) and Ethan (16) also visit your site and the first question they ask when they call is, “How’s Nick doing?”
Today Seamus and I had a very long philosophical discussion about life, adventures, goals, love, energy, friendship……pretty much the entire gamut….. as a result of the outpouring of love and affection that has cascaded forth to you. It was a wonderful conversation for a mother and son to have (at least from the mother’s vantage point) and I have you to thank for that.
Ethan wants to be sure that you know he will be attending a String Cheese festival in March in Florida and he will be thinking about you, especially then.
As the Angel Rays pour in on you, warming you with their healing energy, know that you and your family are foremost in our thoughts and prayers. You had better wake up pretty soon because, when you do, there are legions of people who are going to be stampeding to your side to throw you up onto their shoulders and run around the world with you, celebrating your return. What a party that will be!!!! Jay and I will be there……holding on as best we can because I know it is really going to be something.
With much love,
Myranda and Jay

Hey rainbow ninjas,
look up this prayer-scientist’s take on the “lost mode” of praying by creating an emotion of full 9 yards gratitude in your heart (like you already have your wish granted!) and not so much a thought or image in your head. The deal is, make your heart ring with the feeling of perfect peace and it creates a “field effect” and heals and turns to love everything in its presence. And its presence has infinite radius. Although the dude says this type of prayer doesn’t work for specific things and people but for Da one peace (hey, we all know Nick IS the peace!), it still worked great for my immigration griefs. Cuz when one specific thing is weighing over you like a ton of concrete (I just wrote this to Jackie), when you create that feeling of peace and gratitude you know exactly which curse you’ve lifted. And with it - lifted all curses, healed all Nicks. I knew very well that my “impossible” visa is fixed when I did it (although the results came a month later)- but everything instantly lightened up. As Trav put it “Every joke is a little bit funnier”
So check it out.
If you scroll up you’ll see he places critical mass at square root of 1 percent of the population - that would be, what? - 510 000 americans have to go to the Burn next year in order to light up this here supernation. Think there’s enough room in the desert?
See you in the sky with diamonds!

http://www.greggbraden.com/newsletter03-04.html#heart-basedprayer

Hello Nick!

Greetings from dark and cold Sweden, Stockholm. I’m excited to hear that you are progressing and that there are very positive signs of your healing. My thoughts and meditation are with you everyday.

And hey, you better not stay in New Zealand too long or else I’ll beat you to the laser this summer. I haven’t forgotten the last time you beat me around the island, quite severely I must admit.

See you soon,

your friend Richard

Join in on the 3rd weekly Global Meditation! Send Nich some positive thoughts.

From Shane:

All loved ones come together again.

9pm EST, 6PST, 3pm NZ (friday), 9am BKK, please forward…

Nico,

It has been so very nice to hear of your slow and steady progress. We have all been watching the website, exchanging emails and phone calls, awaiting your arrival back here in the realm of sticks and stones. The good news is that you are making progress and that we all think of you and your wonderful energy constantly. We also understand that it’s necessary for you to be under for a while during your restorative processes, so, take your time.

Just yesterday Kim was telling me about a kayaker she read about who flipped and was pinned under the water for six or seven minutes. By the time he was extracted he had been without oxygen for too long and was in a coma. He was out for a while, six months in fact, but then, suddenly, one day while his daughter was talking to him he simply woke up. His reaction to his situation, all the intravenous tubes etc., was “Ahh! What the hell is all this, get me out of here!” He pulled out the tubes and all, jumped out of bed and…. promptly fell to the floor. His legs had grown weak from being in bed, but otherwise he was fine, amazing everyone. I have great optimism that you too will simply awaken one day. It might not be this week, it might not be next week, but we all are sure looking forward to the day when you wake up, look around and say “Let’s get on with the show!”

We all are sending you energy, light and love every Thursday night (EST). We all love and miss you and are, at the same time, confident and awaiting your return.

Thinking of you constantly,

Will

Hi Nicholas
Just remembered an amusing moment at the Cape which I thought I should share. At one of our family reunions in August several years ago, you were making yourself some kind of very healthy, organic meal with beans and humus and tofu and a bunch of other stuff. Looked pretty disgusting and you mentioned that it wasn’t all that tasty but good for the body. And then with that devilish grin, you poured yourself a huge glass of Scotch and said something about “balance". YOU BETCHA!!!!
So keep moving closer to us. I think a huge party is in order somewhere to celebrate your return and be assured that I’ll go ANYWHERE!
Sheila

Another good day for Nick. His Glasgow Coma Scale (GCS) score leveled out at 8. This is a big improvement coming toward the end of the week. Basically, it means he’s becoming more responsive to certain stimuli. If you want to better understand the GCS score, suggest you Google Glasgow Coma Scale.

Each day we read the current “Letters to Nick” & I can’t begin to tell you how important they are. It is very obvious from what we perceive that there is good reason to believe he is listening intently & I don’t think it’s just to the sound of our voices. Continue to encourage him to wake-up & don’t forget to include some humor. The letters also help us. We are continually talking to him but I suspect he gets bored with our words & looks forward to yours.

Thanks & Cheers. Peter & Lucy

Dearest Nick,
Sitting here in the foggy San Francisco Bay, listening to a soulful 1977 Jerry Garcia jammin the song That’s What Love Will Make You Do, and once again sending love and healing energy your way. Of course, with Jael and Sloane at my side, we’ve tripled the amount of healing energy going your way. Meanwhile, Jael has uncovered this gem of a picture of you with Bobcat at your side on the night of the burn of the Temple of Honor which we’ve posted on this wonderful web site for you to see in good time.

The evening of the Temple of Honor burn was a magical evening that typifies the incredible spirit you bring to every aspect of your life. Cool, calm, focused, light, clear, and on target. On target, on point and on fire. As Jacob-i says, you are da man, and we are so thrilled that you continue to make steady progress. We are patient, and we eagerly, and patiently await your continued recovery. We so look forward to your gradual return to this world of light, music, and community projects. We have so much living to do with you Nick, and we look forward to setting up the great Dragon and Ribbon tents in future outings. And we look forward to nights in San Francisco exploring the sights, sounds, and dreams of this ongoing cultural awakening that we are part of. Lets hit some coffee shops and talk about the adventures in cross pollenation that are seeding this awakening. In the meantime, one event that we’ll soak up for you is a Valentines evening Anon Salon gathering. Dubbed as a Luscious Goddess Tribute, you can be sure it will be a fine evening of San Francisco frolicking. More reports from the front lines coming your way!

Dearest Nick, you are in our hearts and minds every day, and i hope you are feeling our bountiful love. Yes, Jael and Sloane and I and seding you all our love. See you soon dear friend,
Nick

There once was a little boy, Nicholas, with flaming red hair,
Who had a big red dog, named Rufus, for whon he did care.
Daily adventures were on the docket, and as they bonded, they came to share,
Soon all the people were in awe and began to stare.

Rufus was infamous as the “man about town",
Leading the pack at full moon to many a frown.

But he always returned faithfully to his Robbins’ nest,
To guard and watch over the one he loved best!

Nicholas……….Rufus is still with you and will guide you safely back home. Love, Jakie

Nick,
You know how when there’s a big show about to begin and the peeps are gathering, all sparkly and dressed up, you know these hippie kids that hang out in front of the venue waiting to bum a ticket? When I first saw them holding a finger pointed towards the sky, I thought they looked like someone’s just asked them where they’re from and they are so alien, they can’t even speak. So they just point. I’m not from here so I didn’t know the caption was “WHO HAS MY MIRACLE?”
So Nick, imagine us all hanging out in front of the hospital, holding a finger up. You have our miracle, Nick. You gotta let us in to see the fabulous show of the rest of your life.
This will be Da Miracle, dude.
You gotta make it happen.

Nick,
as I am sure your family talks with you everyday I’m sure you’ve heard that new england has been blasted with snow. last night as pete & I were trying our best to help our neighbor free her cars spinning wheels from the ice & snow, it seemed out of nowhere appeared someone we both know & love.. andrew partridge along with his lovely lady, courtney. well, needless to say, drew was just the extra set of hands we needed to get the car moving. atfter we stood in the cold catching up for a moment he told us of your accident. he also mentioned this website, in which we promptly logged onto to find out your progress. Nick, I know that we (you, pete & myself) never really took the opportunity to sit & truly get to know each other. truthfully, maybe we are very different, but after reading some of the emails from your good friends & family, I do regret not sharing a bottle of wine & some stories of your adventures (yours & mine.. although I think yours would blow mine out of the water). I just wanted to say that there is nothing more healing than love of family and friends & the power of positive energy .. we are sending you all of our good thoughts for a full recovery. Peter, Lucy, Pamela & Kristen, your all in our thoughts & prayers as well.
Love from the cape,
Pete, Cindy & Eloise Mills

P.S. next time your at briar hill give us a call…. we’ll bring the wine ;~)

Nick - It seems so strange to be reaching out to you after so much time has passed since I last saw you. Sully called me over the weekend and told me about your accident. Life seems so frenetic, it doesn’t really allow people to stop and spend too much time with the past… but between Sully’s call and the blizzard, I spent the past few days thinking about you. I just wanted you to know that I am so very sorry that you are hurt. Your parents write so beautifully about this peaceful and sun-drenched place you occupy right now - it sounds like an environment full of love, just made for healing. My thoughts, energy, prayers are with you.
Be well soon. Yours, Heather Moore

ps- something perfect just happened. I finished writing this (at work) and another teacher came to my door (I still teach at the middle school in Salem). My door is covered with postcards and images from around the world. As she spoke, she was admiring a postcard (it’s a tree frog), and I just remembered… five, maybe six years ago, when I was setting up my classroom, you gave me a great stash of postcards you had collected on various journeys abroad. Such images have become my hallmark - Collages everywhere! Kids stop and look, ask questions, freak out, laugh, think, imagine - all those things that they should do…
So, she was looking at your postcard and so do hundreds of others every day, thanks for contributing!

Nicholas, it is snowing here very far away from you. I haven’t been able to write you since we’ve been back, but I am with you every second. You too are only temporarily snowbound, and the kind of snow that is covering you is a very light blanket that will melt away. Until then, your work, though I think the job is not easy, is to rest. I want to be with you by your bed, but for today I am wishing you the sweetest and gentlest of dreams. Love, Mum

Peter and Lucy, Reading about the music you were playing to Nicholas and how he reacted to Mozart reminded me that I had heard that Mozart has strong properties of some really good kind, like healing or relaxing - quite as opposed to other classical music even……and I just called a friend who uses music for deep relaxation, resonance and response and so on and she says that, yes, Mozart, and all Baroque music like Vivaldi and Bach. Other music, even classical, does not have the same effect. Good luck and keep us all posted. love from Sarah

Nicholas, Peter, and Lucy,

The snow here on the Cape is absolutely amazing! We have had quite a blizzard and are expecting another several inches during the day tomorrow.

Nicholas, the “shop” in Cataumet has over five feet of snow against the doors. You would be as blown away as I am by the sight of it. The strong Northerly winds of Sunday’s storm scoured the far end of the property and dumped every flake into the lee of my end of the building. David Svarzcopf and I are going to get after it with the Bobcat tomorrow.

Today was quite awesome as well. The sun arrived with an orange glow against the chill of a definite winter day. As I left the island for work I drove along Chapoquoit beach with Buzzards Bay to my right. The shallow waters along the beach looked like a coconut slurpy with sweet little swells rolling in and peeling off as they reached the sandbar. The wave action was almost delayed by the viscosity of the freezing water. I pondered whether Dan had surfed yesterday, as there was a good swell in New Hampshire and he had said he was going. I know damn well that you would have been with him if you were in the Northeast.

Kristin and I have talked a few times this week and hope to get together at Schwendi this coming weekend. I certainly wish you were going to make it this year. You will be missed but surely present in the thoughts of your crew here in New England. We will take a few runs for you and likely tip “a pint or five” in your honor as well. Hopefully there will be some snow in Vermont as most of the storm systems have been more Southern so far this winter.

I check the website whenever I am near the computer. Please continue to amaze us with your small steps. Many peaks are summited by taking a slow and steady course, with many small steps. You have so many friends and family on your “ascent team", please take your time, be strong, and keep climbing.

With much love and confidence,

Andrew

apartridge@greennet.net

Hi N,

I am writing to you from the gym (pretty snazzy, huh?). I just completed my first of MANY training runs. Too much snow to tackle the great outdoors. As a physical therapist (or future one for the record), one of the first things we learn is to set goals according to what the patient wants, not what the therapist wants. Well bro, as we are existing together on altered planes of consciousness, I’ve taken the liberty of setting a few goals for you from time to time. I know you have your own goals that you are working on, however big or small, but, if it’s ok, I’d like to share the responsibility. Anyway, you reached one of mine today (I only set it last night..you work fast!) and for that I am grateful!

So as I think of you every day and the energy and effort you put into breathing, healing and existing with every once of your being, I decided that we should be in training together. For me it’s marathon training time and for you it’s more about training your mind, body and soul to rejoin us on this plane. So..it’s a race…are you in?! What’s a little sibling rivalry? So day one of my marathon training started today and, I’m not gonna lie..I was pathetic. You put on a much better show than I did today. But with every pathetic step I took I thought of you. If Nicholas can __ (Fill in the blank) then I can CERTAINLY run for 5 more minutes. I’ve got wonderful friends to train with me this year (in person and virtually) but you, my brother, are my true training partner this year. I’ve felt very guilty about being back in the States bc I have felt that I have not spent enough time concentrating my mind sparks on you. But now I’ve found my outlet…running has always been therapy for me and now it’s my time to concentrate on you. You’d think after 4 years of this, the thrill of visualizing the finish line and my family and friends would get old…it doesn’t! I’ve already started to do it for this year and I see all 5 of us there (plus Alice). So work hard some days and allow yourself plenty of rest, as will I, …after all..it’s a marathon, not a sprint.

All my love and confidence!
Love, P

I’ve changed the style of the website. If you don’t like it you can change to the old style by choosing default from the drop down box on the right under Style. (You can also experiment with any of the other styles to find one that is right for you)

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Nicholas: We are so glad to learn that each day brings you a little closer to the surface and we are certain that with your massive will and all those who are sending you love and energy you will arrive soon. I know the breadth of support is world wide as I happened upon John Barlow’s site reading yours today. John and I were in the same dorm at The Fountain Valley School in the early 60’s. It certainly looks like you are getting good coverage and pray that it will speed up your retun. Love to you all. Tim and Lauren Schaefer.

NICKSTER !!!

DUDE-MAN-BRO !

It’s Jacob and I want you to hear me ,through the voice of another, saying things you’ve already heard, but I think it’s important to keep hearing these letters, with the chances they can wake you up gently.
I’ve been reading the many wonderful letters on your website daily and want to give thanks to all and their continued conscious awareness.
Music has been a big part of your life and I feel that you’re appreciating hearing it, along with these letters as you dream in your sleep.
Dream time is nice, believe me I know, and know that you know. We’ve had many a night boogying down with the reality that our sleep was crucial. But there is a lot going on tonight and you’ll miss out ,,so wake up !!!, right Now!!! DUDE-MAN-BRO !!!!
We’ll all be dancing with you spiritually on the dance floor.
I find myself continually conscious of you and your healing. We all know you’ll be ok and that you are just fine tuning some of your hardwiring in there.
So much focus and positive awareness has been pouring into you over the airwaves, internet, and meta-space. We all ask you to hear and receive these blessings and prayers. –DUDE-MAN-BRO—
You are a magical man and will continue to spread magic to all of us, who eagerly wait your arrival back in the States. Although your travels didn’t go as planned, they can be continued once you’re back in all your goodness. Let us plan on a group trip to anywhere you want to go, it’s on me ,and I mean it. So ,, Come on Now ! –DUDE-MAN-BRO– Wake up and lets go get some coffee over at Kliens Deli on Potraro Hill. – when you get back–
Don’t forget !, you have a lot of friends who are thinking of you every moment and want to see you on your dancing feet. We understand there will be a transition of wellness, but the sooner you wake up, the sooner we’ll all be hangin.
You are a SUPPER HERO amongst the crew and we need you !!!!!!!
I can’t wait to see your smiling face on our solar-winged-cloud-car. You were THE integral part of coordinating the assemblage and storage of the art car along with the Dragon and Ribbon tents. These were the KEY factors to all of our glorious experiences. It’s very important that you stick with us and mentally prep for next year. It’s all good and feel free to kick back a lot more this year and delegate. Tickets just went on sale and guess what ??
Your tickets on me,,, –DUDE-MAN-BRO– !!!
It maybe tough being the humble man that you are, but please accept the Love and Support that I and all of us are giving you. Take it with grace and embrace the blessings, for you will get better and better !!!
We must honor the process and Trust that it’s All Good !
I have a lot of projects in the works and on the horizon and would love to ask some of you advise and expertise on some things. I’m off to Sundance Film Fest, to see a Film Trailer some of my footage is in. It will be my first time at the Fest , where you’ll for sure be in mind and there in person next year.
I Trust that when you’re ready ,you’ll wake up and be willing to receive and accept all our love, support, and blessings. And please feel free to ask me for anything.
Now you can open your eyes and they will adjust to the brilliance of life–don’t worry,, all you need to do is “anticipate with Trust"!! It’s not to late–Don’t give up !!

____ DUDE-MAN-BRO !! _____ I LOVE YOU NICK !!!

And as you would say “CHUG MORE WATER”

From you dude-man-brother-man Jacob i– and Kittycam

Ciao for now

Once again the sun is pouring its rays onto Nick & he seems at peace. He’s improving daily, as he becomes more alert, especially in the movement of his eyes. To all who have sent CD’s, thanks. For the first time yesterday, he appeared to enjoy the music (mxes), as indicated by a minimal pulse rate increase, as opposed to a rather significant reaction to Mozart 2 days ago. We’re not sure if he really enjoyed Amadeus’ works or disliked them, but will try the classical approach again, later.

The following might be considered NZ life’s philosophy for some & appropriate for Nick’s situation. It was discovered printed on a banner in Dunedin:

“Life’s journey is not to arrive at the grave safely in a well preserved body, but rather to skid in sideways, totally worn-out, shouting “Jeez, what a ride!".

We are convinced this is just a minor skid in Nick’s life with many more ahead, as he resumes his “ride".

Peter & Lucy

Nicholas,
I hope today is better than yesterday and tomorrow is better than today. As you can tell by this fine website that Colin has setup, you and your family are in the thoughts and prayers of a mini-nation of supporters around the world. It is inspiring to witness and a terrific tribute to you.
In this vein of thinking about you and wishing you a continued recovery, I could not help but recall the story that Pamela told to your father and me about the time you decided to take the Edgewater for test run with Kristin and her. It was a mid June day with plenty of sunshine and a bit of a chop; I was soon to learn that is the way you like it. After a leisurely ride up the Annasquam river, approaching Gloucester harbor, you turned to your sisters and said, “Hang on; lets see what type of boat Dad bought.”
Pamela said she was pretty happy to see Manchester harbor and that she had ridden on slower airplanes!
By all reports, you were fairly pleased with the outcome and I think it would be fitting if you did the same with the new boat this summer. (Although Pamela may be having root canal work that day.)
Nicholas, get well soon. I look forward sharing many new adventures with you…..although from reading this blog, I am well aware that my idea of an adventure is far less adventurous than yours!
Be well my friend! Jay & Myranda

Hearts in the Rain

You were stripped down to your boxers,
They were white.
I was small, standing in the doorway with my red rubber boots
Soaking up the rain.

And then you appeared, laughing and drenched.
Relieved, I left the rain, longing for even a teaspoon of your spirit, yet knowing my heart was too frightened to hold it.
Your heart, brother, holds no such fear.

Although I am closer to Pamela since she’s a best friend that one could not live without, I must say that in forming that friendship over the years, I feel like I grew up with the entire Robbins family! I am holding Nicholas, as well as the whole family, in my prayers and thoughts daily. He is so lucky to have such a great support system and so many people who love him and surround him with positiveness!

You may remember a little while back I posted an e-mail from John Barlow whose daughter was recently in a skiing accident (and fortunately recovering well):

Barlow’s Post

Anyway, a friend of mine sent me a link to his blog which is worth checking out. He is kind enough to include Nicholas in his thoughts:

Check out John Barlow’s blog here

Hey Nick ~ Excellent News about you breathing on your own and being moved to a new room - Windows are Key! You are making footprints in the sand my friend! Keep squeezing Peter & Lucy’s hands whenever you can, continue making strides & come back to us when you’re ready!
I wish you could see Megansett Bay where you’ve windsurfed for so many hours. First, our beach at 261 Scraggy Neck has about 4 feet of snow PLUS some pretty serious looking drifts (which the kids tried sledding down yesterday) and then the water is frozen to ice all the way out to Whale Rock. It is beautiful. I took some photos and will email them to you when I can.
Taylor & Spencer did not have school yesterday & not again today. I doubt tomorrow either. Today is Spencer’s 18th birthday. He is with Sea Scouts shoveling out seniors and anyone else who needs assistance with all the snow we received over the weekend. I feel as though we’ve been transported to Waitsfield. It is lovely, for now.
Peter & Gretchen send their love & positive thoughts along with mine to you & your family. After what Dad’s has overcome the past few years, we are all believers of positive thinking and strong currents. Be well & fair winds ~
Ellen Partridge Johnson

My cousin Nick-what can I say he’s cool. That’s how I’ve always thought of him. Smarter and funnier than 90% of the people I know. It’s actually pretty tough to describe Nicholas in words–you just gotta meet the guy to appreciate the person he is. My fondest memories are of the Robbins’s on Wings Neck and Thanksgiving get-togethers. And I always knew if I were to ask Nick what was going on his life I should prepare myself for hearing stories about places I’ve never heard of or adventures that would just make me shake my head–he’s crazy!! I agree with my sister Kate–I wish I had some of that firy spirit in me. Heck I consider myself daring if I get out of Massachusetts. Nicholas is like survivor and the amazing race–and he does it for fun! I remember a long time ago taking the delquay (sp?) out with Nick and him scaring the **** out of me–driving like a maniac with the biggest damn smile on his face while I was nearly peeing in my pants. That’s my cousin–always up for, not a good time, but a great time. I can totally understand what Poo said about him lurking in the dark ready to jump out–oh the boogie man. I wouldn’t put anything past Nick. Nothing. I have a picture of me, Poo, and Nicholas that I carry with me. It makes me feel closer when he is so far away physically. I am studying to be a nurse and Nicholas is in all the patients I see. Everyone at school is pulling for you couz. To Poo and Kristin—the bonds between siblings is a love only brothers and sisters know. I can’t imagine what I would do if faced with this challenge with my only sister who I cherish more than life. But I also know that the bond of the Robbins clan is more powerful than any family I know and if anyone can bring Nick back from wherever he is exploring it’s you guys. If I saw those rainbows I would for sure know that the world is shining down on Nicholas. All my love to Nicholas, Kristin, Poo, Peter, & Lucy. Baby Steps lead to Big Strides.

I wake up in the morning and check your website thinking that maybe today is the day. And I go to bed at night after checking your website thinking tomorrow is definitely it. I can wait a long time, we all can, but I know it will be soon. Billy is sleeping right now. He has these rocks (well actually they are called Linghams from the Ganges River) on his eyes right now that he finds very relaxing and make him feel much better and relaxed. Your parents are probably laughing right now reading this. They probably think I’m even crazy. But really he loves them. Anyway these linghams serve to activate the movement of the sacred energy which is slumbering within the self so that one may comprehend the profound mysteries of enlightenment (believe me Billy needs enlightenment) which lead one to spiritual consciousness and to the actualization of perfection.
Now I know you aren’t going for perfection but maybe we should get you some of these Linghams. I’ll talk to Billy after he stops snoring.

We’re thinking of you as always and Peter and Lucy too. Good night, Arden

This is Cousin Ellen in New York just to tell you that all the Murphys and Warners are thinking about you and holding you very close to our hearts….We are sending vibes via cyberspace from the Big Apple to Nicholas to surround him and his brothers and sisters and Deborah, George, Peter and Lucy with love…So glad you have this website so we can keep abreast of his progress.

Nicholas,
You actually ate a live frog? Now I know the first question I am going to ask you, when I see you next!
I am so happy that all of the good thoughts, prayers and energy have sent the comforting double rainbow to Peter and Lucy. You know that you are on a healing journey but the energy that sent that rainbow was for them. Great job!
We think, talk about and pray for you every day. With love,
Myranda and Jay

Hi, Nick.

John’s message reminded me of the hiking trip where you hitched a ride up with some Christian group from school. That was funny. Maybe that was the same trip as the frog meal.

I’m so glad I got to see your movie in the theatre. For the first time you seemed so vulnerable to me, up there answering questions from the audience. I’m so proud of you for making your dream come true. You are the most honest person I know.

I miss you and I hope you’ll come back. And I’ll be there for you no matter what. I’ll try to be more a sister than an OT. I don’t care if you are frustrated or don’t remember me the same way. You have all of my love, big brother.

-Fio

The postings from Peter and Lucy are so encouraging. It seems like it’s been such a long time since the fall, and I’m selfishly anxious for you to get this over with already!

One of my favorite Nicholas stories is about the time you’d sailed up from Florida, hitched a ride to the Adirondacks with some college girls in order to meet up with us for hiking. Somehow, you neglected to have any food for about 24 hours or so, and while hiking in to us, you were so hungry you ate a live frog. You didn’t seem to be too impressed with that stunt, but I was (and still am) awestruck. Not so much about the live frog – how could anyone miss so many meals in a row??

I think my favorite quality of yours is how equal everyone is to you. You truly enjoy every single person and conversation – right in that moment. The pleasure you derive from being engaged with someone else is a healing gift. I’ve basked in the warmth of your gentle smile. I think you’re the only person I know who does that.

I can hardly wait for our next casual chat.

All my love,

John

This is from Sarah (maternal aunt) and the Maltese contingent again. I have a friend in New Zealand and have asked to have the Baha’s there join in the prayers and spiritual energy. As time goes on my thoughts are also on the whole family, especially those who are far away from him now and just waiting, especially in cold and grey conditions, waiting, and maybe playing mind games - is he going to get better? Is he going to get all the way better? And then when the snow comes and the wind howls dreadful depressing thoughts. All of us where the sun is out can include them in our prayers, not forgetting also those who are still there beside Nick so faithfully. We can’t say that day by day the time factor for them isn’t as difficult. Though they are at least near him, there must be little break. Nick is unaware and not in conscious pain, but the extent of love these dear souls have for him is proportional and continuous pain for them, and short of an instant miracle(which let’s not rule out), it may be an exercise in endurance. What a wonderful and upbeat family…..

For all of you in New England it’s sunny & about 70 here in Dunedin. Enjoy the blizzard. Make the best of it in many ways.

If there are any skeptis out there, be assured the energy is working & was on full display last evening. When Lucy & I returned from dinner around 8:00pm to bid good night to Nicholas (the sun is still well-up at this time in NZ), he openned his eyes for the 1st time since the operation. At the same time, a brilliant, full-arced rainbow appeared about 3 blocks from his window. 2 minutes later a 2nd rainbow formed outside the 1st. The power is definitely working. It just a little time to fully gathre and make it way to New Zealand. Thanks. Although still in a coma (level 6), he appears to be much more alert this morning. Petre & Lucy

Petre & Lucy

Beloved Nick,
It seems you are never shy of presenting us all with great gifts, in your presence and in your temporary absence. The rate at which we have all joined together to support you has truly been remarkable. To see so much love pouring out of so many hearts, at such a constant and potent rate is, in truth, an honor to behold.
We here on the East Coast have just received quite the bundle from our lovely mother nature….3 feet of fluffy white snow! Which equals: A day of freshly baked cookies and brownies, a nice walk in the winter wonderland, and a snuggly afternoon on the couch! Isn’t mothernature Grand! She knows how to slow us down alright; how to take this fast paced east coast society and force us to take a seat for a few days. I believe in taking breaks, in resting, in journeying, in receieving the blessings in whatever form they may come and then carrying on, transformed, and slightly more awakened. That is why I know you will come back to us soon, in fully bright shining form. I honor your journey, I am sure it has taken you far…but we all honor your life so sincerely, as do you my friend. You truly are a great Human Being; you bring love and light to this planet and you love to feel your feet sinking into our beautiful mother earth… We all know within our hearts that you will be back with us soon, in your own time… and though I know the journeying is beautiful, remember we have much time to do that in the afterlife. You came here to live and to shine! I am counting on a funky burning man boogie this year and the funk Mob wouldn’t be the same withour you shine. SO, kiss the cheeks of the angels that guide you and bid them farewell( though they will walk with you always) for your earth angels are beckoning and we need your light!
Love and light,
Carlin

Dear Nick,
The energy and response that is coming your way is a true reflection of the incredible person that you are. Since hearing about your latest adventure in NZ, I have been trying to find the right words to say but what continues to come to mind are the lyrics from a Marvin Gaye song. In part the lyrics say “there ain’t no mountain high enough, ain’t no valley low enough, ain’t no river wide enough” and I would like to add, having known you for almost 30 years I don’t believe that there is any challenge large enough that you can not conquer. Your strength, courage, and determination have always served you well and I know that they will not fail you now. The Stavis clan is sending love and prayers your way and we anxiously await your return.

With love and admiration,
Carey Stavis

I love this website! It’s so chockerblock full of love and well wishes. Colin, you have done a wonderful job of opening a path of communication for all of us to NZ- Kudos to you!! Here come more healing wishes for Nicholas as I look at the fabulous photos that so many of you have sent - especially the one of Nick’s beautiful face on the homepage. It’s that firey red hair that shows the passion that burns within Nick - like most trailblazers and discoverers - something Nicholas has always been. Nicholas - you’ve always had your own timeline for things and the quest that you are on now is surely your biggest to date. We all know that you are working slowly, carefully and diligently on your recovery. Whatever the time it takes, we’ll all be here to continue to support your efforts. Keep giving Peter and Lucy’s hands a squeeze, it’s the equivalent of a bear hug to them. They are going to be the recipients of ALL the Olympic trophies to date as they are also involved in the largest “Olympic event” of their lives. We continue to send you love as you are on our minds each and every day. As snowed in as we are right now - and it’s a considerable 30 inches and still snowing! - our hearts are warm with recovering wishes for you. Oodles of love to our dearest Lucy and PR as well.. xoxo Chandler

Dear Nicholas,
Peter, Bo and Johnno join me in sending you our love, thoughts, prayers and lots and lots of white healing light. I’m trying to liken your resting in the light of Room 14 to when you were missing one night after a day of skiing a few years back. Your Dad told me that while he was very worried, he knew that you had all that it takes to take care of yourself in a challenging situation and to ultimately get yourself to a safe refuge. You did the right thing that night to “hunker down” and reserve your energy to find your way to the road the next day. I know that is what you are doing now; resting, healing and reserving your energy for what’s ahead. In the meantime, I can tell you from personal experience that Lucy’s handholding in the hospital is just the best, and the love and support from all of you friends and family is enormous and it works! Rest, rest and heal. We love you, Cooch and Speed

Hey Nick, Pat Carter here, the one with the pool on the playa where we all had to escape to recharge our own internal batteries. Travis and Ina just told me about your little adventure down under. Just like the dragon tent at burning man that everyone thinks is unfortunate when the breath of god blew it down, you inspire us all to rally and bring out our unique gifts and unite them for the greater good. Out come the brute force to grab the poles and lay it gently down, then the builders for shade and power, the seamstresses and menders, the nurturers with refreshments, we all had some gift which in the end worked incredible well. Reading the recent posts, once again you are inspiring us all to bring out our unique gifts. I’m not sure if you knew but I am an Osteopathic Physician. I’ve studied cranial-sacral therapy and other modalaties. You have made me realize that it is time to pull off my cloak and share my gifts. Distant healing has been well documented in science. So when we say you are in our thoughts and prayers we all really need to mean it and have great intention in what thoughts and what energy we send to you.
Thank you Nick for the gifts you have given us all, now it is our turn to help fix the tent..
love and light, pat

Nicholas,

No sun or heat anywhere in the Northeast this Sunday morning, however, we are in the midst of a tremendous blizzard. We have 30+ inches of snow in hurricane force winds. Awesome power and energy headed your way. High tide is approaching and I think you can probably sense that. I think we can picture you in the back country, skiiing, climbing, generally enjoying the calm after the storm. All in good time.

Lucy and Peter - We were expecting Mike, Babba, Jim, and Sharon to cheer on the Pats this P.M., but understand that portions of 128 are shut down. I guess we’ll just have to wait and see. I suspect that Pamela will be cheering on Tom and the boys!

Keep the faith, Val & Evelyn

To N,

There once was a guy with a shock of red hair,
Who did many a thing most would not dare.
One day he received a wee bump on the head,
Which made him so sleepy he went right to bed.
Then after an operation many hours long,
Through dreams soft as whispers he floated along.
Until one evening under skies blue and cleared
He opened his eyes and two rainbows appeared.

Way to go – I love you,

K.

It’s the 23rd of January and the sun is shining brightly onto Nicholas. Although he’s till resting peacefully, biding his time, healing, for the moment he decides it’s time to startle his & our worlds, we know he feels the rays and strength. Peter & Lucy

Lucy and Peter Leo and I are praying for you all with the sure hope that God will grant you all you ask for your son. Much love, Valerie

Dear Nick,
I don’t know if you’ll remember me, but my wonderful sweetheart Travis of String Cheese is a closer friend of yours. I met you at the last Burningman. I have an Eastern European accent and was mostly dressed as an angel, so if you can picture me like that, all the better. It’s only a costume, but hey.
Travis has always described you to me the way one describes a jedi – even before the accident, he’d tear up and get the Holy Ghost bumps just thinking of your incredible energy.
It’s been such an honor to get to know you better through this.
I just took the liberty of borrowing your amazing pair of eyes and went and gazed at the sunset (check out solarhealing.com, family and friends) till the last golden ray high-fived my third eye and hid behind the rolling hills. Three male deer (with horns big enough to receive satellite pictures from Sirius) observed me for a while, wondering what the bleep I was doing, then got it and went on grazing. It’s very beautiful on this planet, Nick. Don’t you forget that. There’s a lot of people you haven’t hugged yet and a lot of jokes at which you haven’t laughed.
It must have been very painful and scary taking that fall, but we wanted you to know you’ve done what you probably aimed for. You’ve tested the speed and grace with which our tribe would come together, even scattered outside the fence around our hometown in the desert. You clocked the time needed for our motley freaky superhero nation to wake up and move as one. We did good, didn’t we?
Nick, when you were falling from that tree, you probably didn’t want us to know you’re emergency-testing our Oneness. But we passed, didn’t we? Now, wake up. Take your nap, rest well, and then wake up. Please.
We all want our superhero back.
In the 3D, if possible.
See, you’ve touched the lives and made it into the dream space of people that have met you only once, and strangers pray for you like you’re their older brother or their childhood hero. You’ve become the banner of a new revolution, sweetheart, the shaman of a larger tribe. It would be so cool if you woke up and let them meet you in person and enjoy your amazing mind and spirit again. Remember how Luke Skywalker fixed his hand when Darth Vader cut it off? You can do the same and repair yourself everywhere! We’re supplying the white light.
May the Force be with you, beautiful.
So much love,
Travis and Ina

PS: Travis just looked at your picture again and said: “I don’t think Nick is gonna miss next Burningman. There’s no way.”

Love from the Center,
Light from the Mothership,
Fractal dust from the Desert

Lillian and I are friends of your parents. I don’t think we have met. A while back I skied at Sugarbush with your father and Pamela and her high school friends. I guess it was quite a while ago! Kristin and my daughter Ashley were in Courtney Bierwirth’s wedding together last spring. Anyway, when Ashley was 15 she had a bad accident and was in New England Baptist Hospital for 3 months. She is fine now, so keep the faith you will do just fine. Our prayers are with you. Just keep improving. We get reports from your father every day.
David and Lillian Newbert

Nick spent a successful & fairly restful night in his new location. Today’s good signs are he continues to breathe completely on his own, the line used to monitor various vitals has been removed from his wrist & the central line has been removed from his chest. This is an indication that his really doing everything necessary himself with minimal, electronic monitoring. Another baby step forward. The healing energy is working.

I think we can anticipate many, long, mind-bending conversations from Nick regarding this journey he’s on. These will happen. Continue to be patient. He’ll pick his time.

Peter & Lucy

Now that Nicholas has “graduated” to 5B, we want to extend our deepest gratitude to everyone in Ward 5A for all you did him & the family. The complete confidence you instilled was an inspiration and a source of great comfort. Many thanks.

Peter & Lucy

Okay Nicholas, I have been quite on the website because so many others have so much to say. Well, each of us has a job to do. Some of us are medical, some of us are the rocks. Well my job, and I tell you this every single day, is to watch your every move. I will see if you twitch a lip or an eye, if you move a finger or a toe. That is my job to catch every single move. So, my dearest friend, rest assured that I have that part covered. I have loved you for over 30 years and have lots and lots of years left.
Your step - Lucy

I’m glad some of the photos posted (e.g. the latest from Kristin and the Halloween one from Colin) attest to Nicholas’ sense of humor–maybe the most important quality a person can have. I can’t wait to have it back.
Deborah

This is to the entire medical team
Thank you for taking care of Nicholas. He is my only nephew and without you, he most likely would be lost to us. I know that he is in room 14 with the sun shining on him and all of you making sure that he is comfortable and improving. As you read these notes, I am certain that you realize what an incredibly special young man he is, how many lives he has touched, and how important he is to so many. We all are awaiting his return and then you can get to know him as we do.
So keep going and know that what you do is AMAZING!!

Dear Nick,
My name is Michele Scaife and I am the wife of your cousin Stephen Scaife. I have met you once. You and your family had just come back from a sail in our 12′ “Bonita". I have been inspired by all of the positive comments and energy that has come your way from your dear friends and family. I just want to let you know that we, Scaife’s, are pulling for you. You are in our thoughts and in our prayers. From what I have read about you over the past week or so, I’d say there are alot of people betting that your have the inner strength to conquer this enormous challenge. We will continue to keep updated on your progress and we send to you all of the positive thoughts we can muster.

Michele

Nicholas,
Every night before we sit down to dinner, we say a little prayer for you and your huge, talented, wonderful family.
Hang in there. You WILL get through this. Period.
Breathing on your own today, sitting up in bed tomorrow, and walking the next day.
FIGHT ON!

Love,
Meg and Dan Galaburda

Brother Nick,

You my bro and i pray everyday that you be o.k. I’ve thought so much of you and am reminded of so many great moments with you. I want to see your recovery 100% so you can be back on the frisbee field in full action. Silky i love you and miss you as well. My love to all friends and family of Silky Smooth. He is a great brother i’ve been blessed to share time with on the great adventure of life. I’ll see you soon my friend and fellow soul. All the love,
maki

Pingree 89! Nick get better to enjoy life and your family as all of the photos and messages have indicated. Be as strong as i remember you being all your life and we will see each other again on the streets of Mass. I know the tree and my initials are there as well from when I made the same journey in 94. Take care and all my love to your parents and sisters.

Peace, joy and laughter,

Memphis Ned Foster

Nicholas,
Jay and I think about you and your family throughout each day, and we speak about you often. The staggering outpouring of love on this website is an enormous tribute to the man that you are. You have touched so many people so deeply and, in the words of Stuart Johnson, “it has transformed this writer". I think that in your deep sleep, you have made each of us better people. How fortunate for us, that as we read these wonderful reflections and tributes to you, we have to look inside ourselves and ask the hard question: do we measure up? As all of us talk about you, your adventures and your soul, we see what a truly uniquely gifted man you are. We are all so anxious to have you come home and to continue your adventures. You are an inspiration for each of us and for that we thank you.
How wonderful that you are breathing on your own! Such a huge step and reflective of your enormous inner strength. We are cheering you on, with each healing step you take. I am so pleased to think of you in a bright room, with the sun warming you.
Be well Nicholas! With much love,
Myranda and Jay

Hi Nick,

My name is Eric I have been friends with Colin since our days at Tufts. I have never had the pleasure of meeting you but I have be fortunate enough to meet a number of your friends at your place in San Francisco. After seeing what wonderful people they are I feel like I have met you in a way. I want to wish you a speedy recovery and I look forward to meeting you one day and hearing some stories about all these wonderful adventures you have had. Stay strong strong Nick.

Eric

Strength and hope to Peter and Lucy for bearing the ultimate challenge a parent can face, and to Nicholas hear those clear tones of Bone’s guitar, lean on all the character your family and friends gave to you, and heal and heal. Peter, Gena and Kelsey Schaefer

Now that we (George and Deborah) are back in the States, we want to say what a massive help all your comments to Nicholas are. It’s a wonderful thing to have a forum to talk to him. Kristin has been printing the messages and reading them to him. Now what we want is for him to read them himself, and what fine reading they will make!

Keep it up. I hope one of these days Nicholas will introduce at least a few of you to us.
Deborah

Dear Nick, Peter & Lucy,
That is great news! Baby steps forward are huge! Good job, Nick!
Becky

Oh Hooray! After each of these Thursday night energy surges that comes your way, I think this will be it and this was huge. Good move Nicholas! I can’t believe
how hard you are fighting. You are making your Dad and Lucy extremely happy not to mention thousands of others around the world. Keep it up #14.

It’s 21 Jan & very positive move occured today at 1450. Nicholas was moved from ICU Ward 5A to the ICU step-down Ward 5B. He’s in Room 14 (The number he wore playing hockey at Pingree. Perhaps yet another coincidence?) and is right next to a large window with daylight on him all day.This was a result of him being able to breathe on his own. No ventilation necessary. Another baby step but I big one as far as we’re concerned. He’s still in a rather deep sleep, which is normal after his extensive day in the surgical theatre yesterday.

As more and more of you post to this site, the continued postive energy makes its way to Dunedin. It is felt by all.

Cheers. Peter & Lucy

Nick,
I’m sending healing thoughts and love. I’m visualizing your slow awakening with full function of your mind and body. When I heard about your accident, this memory from last fall popped into mind. It was a chilly fall afternoon at Niles beach, you and Will were getting ready to windsurf. It was a sweet image, two friends playing together. You know how to enjoy life, it’s such a beautiful gift. Thanks for sharing that joy.

As friends of your mom and dad from Gloucester, we’ve only met you once at Wings Neck. It was just a brief meeting as you were in the midst of one of your challenging and inspiring adventures, something that might have helped to prepare you for one of your life’s greatest obstacles. You and your family are in our hearts every day. Nicholas, you are on the receiving end of so many positive thoughts, and the more we read about you, the more we believe that you will conquer this latest challenge and that we’ll revisit when you return home. Keep progressing in your own special way and time. Evelyn and Val Somers

Stephen, Taf, Holly and Kyle Schaefer send all manner of love your way, along with a river full of healing thoughts!

Nicholas
At 6PM (NH time, 15 degrees, clear sky with bright moonlight), I had visions of you windsurfing off of Wings Neck and floating down the Kennebec River!! Always water. That’s where I find you in my thoughts. And you always wear that devilish smile which we all are anxious to see again when you are strong enough to find us.
But I REALLY want to hear of this adventure so I’ll be very patient.
xoxo Sheila

Nick, everyone of your fellow mates from Tuesday Night Hockey is with you. We have seen your athleticism. We have been lifted by your vigor, your enthusiasm, your tenacity. Noone is better suited to front the challenge you face today. Although we all “well up” with an abundance of concern, we are comforted with optimism. This, Nick, you will overcome. A day at a time; patient, but perservering. Steady, inch by inch, you alongside everyone who is with you, will put this in your distant past. It will take time, but triumph, we will.

This website shows the power of concern. The outpouring of love, encouragement and optimism are powerful. Frankly it has transformed this writer; I have been swept by the depth and strength of all of the posted letters and EMails. Initial despair has been totally replaced with optimism. When you really feel it, as I most certainly do, then, yes, it can and will become reality.

Everyone of the Tuesday Nighters, as well as Penny and I, carries you in our thoughts and prayers. We will never let up, never.

Peter, Lucy, you can just imagine our thoughts. We are with you, as we are with Nick. Just stay the course, knowing that each and every person who knows what is happening is with you all the way. We will never swerve from our understanding and our support.

Nick,

I just wanted to let you know that I have been thinking about you, praying and trying to send as much positive healing energy your way as possible over the past few days. And I will continue.

Thinking back to the times we have had together makes me realize even more how special a person you are. It is fantastic to see how many people you have touched.

Baird hinted that “the band” is getting back together which is fine by me.

I hope you have a speedy recovery.

Eric Johnson

Nick,

When I cast a glance skyward this evening at six, I will send thoughts of Kauhuhu, the Shark God, who native Hawaiians believe to provide strength and power. I hope and pray that the mana you receive from him will speed your recovery.

There is a tremendous light in you Nick, it comes through often and shines brightly. I see it in the glance after you score a goal, or the moment before you tackle the toughest bike trail. There is a joie de vivre that can never be extinguished. I look forward to seeing that light again soon.

Wherever your journey has taken you now, take care of yourself and those around you. Rest and heal.

A Hui Ho (until we meet again)

Shawn

Also, don’t forget that the radionics cards are in the photo gallery:

• Jacob’s Photos

Nick,

We’ve never met, but I know your family well. I hope you’re preparing yourself for some more travels in your sleep and hearing what everyone has been writing to you. We all hit some bumps in the road - some bigger than others - but we shouldn’t be afraid to climb over them. Stay strong and keep climbing.

Will Dore

Lucy and Peter:

Megan Gordon and I are sitting here at work looking out on Manchester, but our thoughts are in New Zealand with you and Nick. We just wanted to let you know that we are thinking and praying for you. Ginny Mcilvaine who works the other days would second that.

Love,
Betsy, Megan and Ginny

Nick and I met driving launches in Marblehead. Right away we clicked and for the next eight or so years had many adventures together. As one philosphy major to another we deconstructed, debated, and articulated any concept that words could be put to. As musicians we did the same thing, , and over the years we collaborated on many projects. I want Nick to know that despite our disagreements I value and love him for everything he brings to this life. Jay Smith

Dear Nicholas,
I have not met you yet but know your mom. She is a Board of Director here at HAWC in Salem where I work. Every chance I get I pray for you to get well. Today I saw your picture and read some of the letters your friends and family have sent. You lit up my screen with your handsome face and in your eyes I saw all the joy and adventure you hold within. So, here I am having faith in you. When you get well and feel up to it I would love to meet you. Until then, I will keep checking in and keeping the faith.
With love ,
Lillian

Hi All… I hope I am not stealing Shane’s thunder, but wanted to send out a quick note about the second global meditation happening tonight (depending on where you are). I am sure most of you got some type of email.
In order to get all time zones involved…the times are: Thursday 3 pm Pacific, 6 EST and 12 noon on Fri in NZ, 10 am Fri in Aus…the rest of you can assess which time zone you are in and figure it out from there. For those of you new to this, it is a time when we are all going to focus our positive and healing energy towards Nicholas. Knowing the large number of pople Nicholas has influenced during his life…well let’s just say that’s a LOT of positive energy heading towards him. So please take about 5-10 min to meditate and focus on my bro. For many people asking what they can do to help… this is their chance! Spread the word.
Love to all…Pamela

I have had this website open all day long at work (which for me means a very long time) ever since I found out about it (my grateful thanks for it - it is comforting not only to read the updates on Nicholas but to see how much care and love there is for him out there). I check it frequently throughout the day to see/read the latest postings. I personally, have been trying to come up with exactly the right thing to write and have finally come to the conclusion that there is no right thing. Nicholas is my older cousin. I have countless memories of me, my sister, Kristin, Nicholas and Pamela at Briar Hill - all of them filled with many, many laughs. I’ve always envied Nicholas and his flare for life. He’s someone who, in my mind, does what many people only talk about doing but never have the guts to go out and do. Its always fascinating talking to Nicholas to find his latest adventures and what adventures lay ahead. I have wished many times I could be more like him.

My heart goes out to Uncle Peter, Aunt Lucy, Kristin and Pooh. Nicholas - you best be enjoying this slumber but remember you still have many, many more adventures ahead of you.

All of my love,
Kate

I want to thank everyone for all of the stories and the photos are great! I check out this site at least 3 times a day and your stories put a smile on my face. The cloud within and above me lifted and vanished about 5 days ago so I am certain that Nicholas will stay with/within us in some way. I am selfish enough to want him here physically as well as spiritually but I know that he is taking notes for his next film!
Sheila

It’s 6:15pm on 20 January & Nick is back in the ICU after pretty much all-day surgery. Is in good shape & all vital signs are fine. The anesthesia is expected to wear off in a couple of hours. He now has a trach and looks much better with the tubes out of his mouth. Also, the facial fracures have been repaired, which took most of the day. The nuerogeon did not replace the cranial bones, as Nick’s brain was still a little too swollen. However, he did indicate that the brain was still in a state of healing. Unfortunately or fortunately, depending on your point of view, this delays Nick’s eventual return to the U.S. However, we’re absolutely convinced to this is OK. Slow & cautious is good! Providing all goes well, there is a good chance he’ll be out of the ICU next week. Baby steps!

Please, everyone, continue to support this web site. It’s vital to Nick’s recovery. Peter & Lucy

I want to say thank you to Nick’s family for this website….it has been great to be able to check in and get the news on Nick’s progress and recovery. I am thinking about Nick and the whole Robbins family everyday and am always eager to check in and see what has been going on in NZ for all of you.

My connection to Nicholas is through our parents who are part of a big group of friends that we refer to as the “Olympic” group. As kids, our parents would get together in the summers for what they called “The Summer Olympics” where they would create and participate in all kinds of ridiculous games, always with a beer in hand as I remember it. Anyway, since hearing about Nick’s accident I have been thinking a lot about this group…the “Olympians". If there was ever a time to be like an Olympian, it’s now…..Be strong and brave and know that there is a whole sea of people out here thinking and praying for you everyday.

With Love,
Kate Schaefer Cooney

Dear Beautiful Nick,
What a blessing it was for me to meet you when you crashed
my Birthday party last year. Surely I have known you in
lifetimes prior as our connection runs much deeper than
it appears. I am sorry I never had that astrology reading
done for you for your Birthday last year. I am sorry we
did not get together at Thanksgiving. As you know, I am
thinking of you, praying for you, holding you close to my
heart and feeding you as much vitality and healing
nurturing, divine feminine energy that I can. I have at
least 30 other Goddesses praying for you, too. You can heal
and come back Nick, if you want to. I trust completely
in your decision to rest in another rhelm at this moment.
And we all patiently await your return. You are a
magnifiscent man whom I admire deeply. May you know deep
peace at this time. Many Blessings to all your friends
and family, as well. I pray for you all. And my Love to
you, Nick. Sincerely, -Sacha

hi. i’m not even 100% sure how this applies, but my sister lived across the street from the robbins
in manchester-by-the sea, and my brother chris roy and his wife annie (read) know nick. anyways, point made.
i am nothing more than an affected party. and grateful that your family has been so willing to ask for help and
lean on the armies of people nick’s accident has affected. what you’ve done is it given me the opportunity
to help, and for that i thank you.

i will pray for nick’s happiness and the continued strength of your family.

if there’s anything i can do for you in los angeles – please let me know.

ryan o roy

We only met Nicholas once: two summers ago, at a dinner at Kristin’s when she was living in Gloucester.

I’d heard about Nicholas over the years during the time Kristin and I worked together when she was living in Sweden (I’d heard about all the Robbinses and McNaughtons, in fact) and after she moved back to the States as well. She talked proudly of Nicholas, of the movie he was making, of his adventurous and independent self. So, it was a treat to meet him… he was warm and personable and such a guy, and best of all, within minutes it was obvious that he has that same great evil humor that is one of the things that makes me love Kristin so and fiercely miss having her here.

Nicholas, we are thinking of you and wishing great strength and healing rest for you and all of those near to your heart, in particular you, Kristin…

/Bert Menninga and Francisco Ballesteros in Stockholm

Tomorrow is a big day. As it is, I think about you, your Mom and Dad, Kristen and Pamela constantly. I just keep hoping that the more I think about you, and the more everybody thinks about you, that you will pull out of this mess. I have never met you in all these years, and obviously from reading what all your friends have been writing about you, I have missed meeting an exceptional person. I know that will change one of these days. So good luck tomorrow! There probably won’t be a minute that goes by that I don’t think about all of you.
You’ve made it this far so no doubt you can go a little farther. All my best, Arden

Hi Nicholas,

Thought it was time I drop my big bro a note now that I am back in the States. I never knew how much I would miss staring at someone day after day, but I do. I miss noting the tiny improvements that I know I saw in you every day. I went back to school today and everyone there is welcoming me with open arms, so no worries mate. It might be tough at times, but it’s nothing to fret over. This website has been a great place for all my friends and teachters to get to know you better. It’s incredible to me that the stories we all have to share are so similar. Whether you are in Burning Man Mode, in a Nick Buzz or chill-axin’ (to steal your recent favorite word while in NZ) with your families…the fabric of your being is a constant throughout all the roles you play. Even before the accident, you were present in so many aspects of my life, but it’s not until a time like now that I really had the opportunity to appreciate just how much you and Kristin are part of my daily thoughts. Whether it be a cool cafe or funky movie that I went to…or a dimented, bizarre siutation that I wish you had witnessed so you could re-live it with me later comeplete with voices and exaggerations…you have always been and will ALWAYS be in my thoughts and my heart. I do roll my eyes when I tell stories of the beatings I had to endure from my big brother…anything from tying my feety pajamas in knots to tying me to a pole in the basement with an extension cord (Jon..you are guilty to!) but people always said “it’s good for you, you’ll appreciate it some day"…and i guess that time is now.

The night of the accident you tried to scare Kristin and I by standing at our sliding door and saying “dont’ be afraid of the boogie man". I had a hard time going to sleep that night bc I had a fear that you were going to bust thru the door and scare the crap out of us. I thought of asking K to close the door, but I thought..that’s silly…I’m 27 years old..he can’t scare me like that. Truthfully, I was shaking. You have always had me on my toes, whether it be lurking in the shadows ready to pounce or awaiting a return call or meeting so we could discuss recent adventures. So bro, you’ve got me on my toes once again. I eagerly await your return so you can share your tales.
I love you Nicholas
love Pooh

PS To the nurses of ward 5A…it is SO good to read your postings. I miss you all as you were my very much a part of my daily life while I was in NZ. Thanks for taking such incredible care of Nicholas (and my parents!)

hello nicholas,
honor has been one of my closest friends for over a decade now, and, as a result, i have had the opportunity to spend quite a bit of time with you as well. however, i feel like there are always a gang of people around, great conversation flowing, yet we have never really been able to have a good pow-wow. through these times together, and hearing of your amazing travels from honor, though, i have developed an automatic respect for you, and sincerely desire the chance to finally have that chance to grab your ear for awhile. you are in my thoughts. i will save a barstool for you. see you soon.
tim stonecipher

In the eight short years that I ‘ve known you, you have become one of my best friends, confidant and musical partner. Back in the days of No Doctors (we will rise again!) you were the keystone - as your songwriting and musical skills were far above the rest of us, and your vibrancy was a motivation for us all. I miss hanging out with you and ruminating on different facets of our lives - what the future holds for us and how we can make our present days magnificent. Those days are not over, this I know, we have many more adventures to go on, many more subjects to discuss, and many more tunes to play. You are a brilliant man, in mind and soul, and your friendship and vitality has been a powerful influence in my life .

Peace -

Baird

It’s Wednesday here. George and I just saw Nicholas early this morning. At noon he’ll have a CT scan to see whether his head swelling has decreased enough for tomorrow’s surgery to repair the bones in his jaw/cheeks and to replace the bone flaps in his forehead. They’ll do the tracheostomy anyway, as it will free his mouth and vocal cords.

He looks far better than he did a week ago! Instead of a johnny he has been wearing boxer-shorts made of johnny-material. They are quite flattering, since he is very fit–and the excellent physiotherapist is working on keeping him that way. He still wears the support stockings and goes in and out of splints and pressure-machines to keep his legs strong.

He has photos around his bed as well as a poem by Piers and a quote from Sir Edmund Hillary that Peter put up. He still wears his lucky turquoise accessories as suggested by his friend Naomi.

George, Kristin and I leave here tomorrow with mixed feelings at best. We have become dependent on being with Nicholas.

Hey there Nicholas,
I spoke with Colin’s girlfriend Hillary the other day and she told me about your situation. I just wanted to reach out and let you know that I’m thinking about you and hoping for the best. We only knew each other briefly, but if I had stayed in San Fransisco, I’m sure we would have become better friends. The last time we spoke was this summer when you called not realizing I had left San Francisco for Seattle. This was of course my fault for rushing away from the city without telling all my friends, but I loved your random phone call and really enjoyed that conversation. You will be in my thoughts as I hope for a speedy and thorough recovery for you. Take care, Emily Brand

Dear Nick,
I have finally pin-pointed the time when I first met you. Eventhough we have known eachother for only a few years, I feel like we have been friends much longer than that. You have become a dear firend to me in such a short period of time. Andrew (Partridge) and I were flipping through some photos of you to post on your website. We came across a picture from Schwendi weekend in January up in Vermont. You and ‘Bone’ were playing your guitars in the living room. The memory then became clear…….I was a new recruit into the Partridge Cousins’ circle of friends and it was my first Schwendi weekend. I must admit that I was a bit overwhelmed with all of the names I had to attempt remember, Your name certainly stood out because you were one of the guys playing the guitar. After engaging in a conversation you, I instantly knew how special you are. In addition to being muscially inclined, I admire your brilliance, free-spirit, and the way you look at life…….You are a lover of life and adventure. As we always see you with a big smile on your face, you promote joy instead of anger. You take in each wonderful moment you encounter and never take anything for granted. You have been to so many places and always have a story to tell from each of your adventures. This is probably your biggest adventure yet. When come back from this adventure, we’ll all be here waiting for you. We will be by your side throughout your every step on your road to recovery. We will help you get back into the things you love to do. You are in my thoughts and prayers day in and day out. Nick, stay brave, stay strong, and come back home to us soon.

Love, Courtney DiPaolo

Hi Big Nick,
You came into my life via jon and it has forever been changed because of your presence. You have contributed so much to Jon’s being that he sees you in everything he does. I love watching the two of you together and how easy your friendship is. The most important things I have learned from you is to be patience and pay attention to detail . The patience you take with everything you do to make things just right is more than admirable…from making the perfect cup of coffee to rigging your kite board. The Stavis’ refer to this patience and your attention to detail as “the Nick Buzz". Anyone who knows Nick has experienced the Buzz. This is the time it takes for you to prepare for your adventures. The last time I saw you, you were buzzing to your van to organize, reorganize, get things in place then went buzzing somewhere else for other “adjustments". I know in my heart you are “buzzing” right now to make sure everything is in place perfectly for your return. Jon, Minnie, little Nick, Callie and I are patiently awaiting your return so we can watch you buzz around our house. You know where your room is whatever time you should happen to arrive. We will be patiently waiting for you. Be strong. Love, Judy

Hi Carolyn Thompson here one of Nicholas’ nurses. It’s been great looking at this website and getting a glimpse of the colourful life that Nicholas has lead so far. I find this helpful in caring for him as obviously I did not meet him until recently. Nicholas is making slow progress. I look forward to revisiting this site and updating myself.

Hi “Flow Master"!

Ralph here. I just arrived in Bangkok where we were planning to hook up for a continuation of the magical mystery tour.
So of course you show you in my dreamworld instead you trickster! I simply approached you as you were sleeping and you woke up with your sparkling,bright and whimsicle spirit. I was sleeping but you were awake! (and lucid and conscious).We will explore that koan next time Isee you in our continued philisophical musings.
Our discussions and reflections have been such a delight my friend. Your playfulness and adventurous spirit, brilliant articulation and wordsmithing,extraordinary knowledge on the widest range of topics,endless curiosity, openess to the unknown and eagerness to listen, as well your authentic presence often bring the best out of me and a sense of being so finely upon the razors edge of aliveness. Seeking out the miraculous in gatherings and celebrations of friendship,nature,music,art,dance is a helpful context in this exploration of aliveness and I continue to find myself in your company….The world is indeed a stage and what a show! So many moments where I find myself feeling and thinking,"This is it! and it doesnt get any better", you have been there.
And to see you in action and relating to what has been a coming togeather of an ever widening tribe of energetic,dynamic,creative,playful friends has been a joy. And to feel that embrace,the support,validation that is truely love is so healing and I know how much gratitude you have felt as you have been essential and somehow so central a part of this manifestation… We need you Nick!
My heart is broken open Nick. I hope you can hear me and feel my love.
Ralph

Nickster, I cherish the friendship we have developed in the last couple of years. We have been drinking deeply from the wellspring of life togeather.

We are Sarah, Nicholas’s maternal aunt, and his Maltese uncle Leli and cousin Irene. Ever since we heard of his fall we have been constantly with him and all of you in spirit and concern. Prayers continually circling the world for Nicholas can include a point in the Mediterranean, Malta, where our friends here are also moved and have prayed with us in English, Maltese, Persian chanting. This site is very impressive and moving. It is certain that when Nick squeezes the hands that are with him, he is responding to all these thoughts as well. What a further big boost he is going to get when he can read and talk! It is interesting that through this deep sleep all of us who know him and don’t know each other are giving and getting a much fuller portrait of someone we each knew was wonderful from out own patch….and that is a limp description. Hoping that in whatever way on whatever level he is having VERY sweet dreams… with much love….

We can’t add anything to what our daughter, Kristin, posted earlier today, except to advise that we have received more reinforcement from the medical teams that the decision and consent to operate on Thursdayis absolutely the correct one for Nicholas’ well-being and future.

We, also, want to say how much the contributions to this site have meant to us, as well as being a positive source of energy to Nicholas.

Peter & Lucy

Big Nick –

You are beautiful.
You soak up knowledge as you pass it by,
And share it when you can.
You take life where it takes you,
And your friends have met no match for a friendship such as yours.

As I wander through my life these last few days since your fall,
Everything I do reminds me of you.
Somehow every memory of you and I together has found a path to my present consciousness,
and each carries another with it.

Everything I enjoy, I want you to enjoy with me.
When you are there, we explore the depths of detail together.
When you are not, I keep the thought for later.

How often in life are we given the opportunity to present our innermost person
To another person, who will hear every word, and give back what you need most.
And then give you that sweet morsel of wisdom that will make you a better person when you’re done.

And I for one would not be who I am today were it not for your philosophies. Each one of them has made it’s way into the fabric of my life.
It might be on how to stretch a muscle, or how to start a car, or even how best to handle a situation like the one we are in right now. As I write, I think about what you would do.

Nick,
As all your friends and family know
From years of experience,
You know more than most of us combined
And, that much again about how to take your time.
(Yes, you do have a watch, but I am not sure I’ve seen you wear it)
How to travel down the path less traveled,
And when you reach your destination, you are always better for having taken that time.
Here is where you need it most – piece everything together as carefully as you can.
You’ve got me waiting once again, happily and hopefully
Awaiting your return, brother.

Love Jon

Even in the 5th grade at the Tower School, Nick defied any conventional description. His intelligence, words, thought process, demeanor, interests, and incredible curiosity were unlike anyone’s I knew. 23 years later, I still believe those observations to be fact.
How often do we really meet people in life that are true originals? I mean, people who really live life on their own terms; who don’t cater to other’s expectations…who don’t conform.
If there is anyone who can overcome these injuries, it is he. If there is anyone who can utilize “mind over matter” it has to be Nick.
Thank you for this web-site. I realize now that Nick has had, and will continue to have, this similar and wonderful impact on so many lives.
Get strong Nick and much love to all,
T.J. Winick
Marblehead, MA

Greetings – Nicholas’ big sister Kristin here. Nick is looking great today (Tuesday, Jan 18 in NZ). Seems that the staph infection is under control. His respiratory situation has improved slightly as well and they have knocked down his support from the respirator a bit (pressure support down to 10 from a 15 last night). He has periods of “wakefulness” during which his eyes are open and it seems that they react to voices and other stimulus and he has a lot of movement in his right arm – if you put your hand in his he will grasp it very tightly. These periods are followed by definate times of sleep – where he simply closes his eyes and rests. He has also progressed a bit on the Glasgow Coma Scale from a 5 to a 7-8 (when he was admitted he was at a 3).

Thank you all for your wonderful letters. We print them out and read every single one to him!

love to all,
Kristin

Hi Nick,
I have only known you for a few years, but have spent some great times with you and am very fond of you. You are a smart, interesting and engaging person with so much positive energy. Zan has told me many stories about the Partridges’ and Robbins’ family outings,and the countless memories with you all. I feel honored to know you, and Zanny has always talked about you with laughter and smiles. I hope you can feel the love and prayers that everyone is sending your way,;we are all counting on you to pull through! In Zan’s words, “if anyone can pull through this, Nick can".
We are thinking of you now and cannot wait to see you again!
Molly Calvert

Dear Nicholas……We go back a long way. I remember as a small child you were quite stubborn and very determined. I remember this mostly in regard to food. If it wasn’t smothered in ketshup you weren’t going to eat it. There were no two ways about it. Peter (and then Lucy) were incredibly patient and I think Teresa Heinz will be forever in your debt. If it wasn’t red you were not going to eat it. Happily, you out grew that particular phase and we have had many fun meals with you in Cataumet. You are a good eater now, alway appreciative, and never need ketshup. Peter and Lucy, as well as the rest of your family and all of your friends, are once again being patient. As long as you are as stubborn and determined as that little boy was I know we will see you again soon…..Lots of love…Joanie

Nicholas -

I know in my heart that you will wake up strong and press on with your beautiful life. You always keep everyone guessing (where you are and perhaps at times, how late you’ll be : )) and there is no other person that I seem to bump into more often than you. In Gloucester, in the woods on your bike, you are always a welcome and lovely surprise . Although I don’t know you as well as I would like, your depth, intelligence, and goodness is clear and is something that this world needs more of so we will welcome your return with open arms and big smiles. Your spirit is an inspiration! Dig deep and pull yourself to the surface - I know you will. We miss you and you are on my mind constantly. Take care carrot top!

much love always!

Kristin Ellison

Dear Nicholas, This is your family in Stonington (Jakie,Bridget,Chris,Jess and David) wishing you a speedy recovery. Your accident has mobilized the most enormous wave of hope that I have ever witnessed. Everyone is tapping into all of their spiritual avenues to spread the word and build a gigantic healing field to keep you safe and wrap you in a warm and healing blanket. As Margie recounted the story of your last question to Lucy before you went to bed one night when you were very young…"how did the universe start?” I would like to think it began with HOPE. I am in constant prayer for your safe return to all of us. GOD BLESS and see you in the morning. Love, Aunt Jakie and Family

Dear Nick and Family~
I heard the news and couldn’t believe it to be true! I know that Nanny is watching over you and remembering all the times she would watch you windsurf off our beach! You gave her such joy! I believe in the power of love and positive thoughts and so am keeping you and everyone in mine. Fair winds my friend ~ I hope to see you back on the board soon.
Love,
Ellen (Partridge) Johnson
(Cataumet/Scraggy Neck)

Hello Nick, I am a friend of your parents. Heard you had a nasty fall and what a place to do it. You have so many friends and family members who love you. Keep up the fight and come back to us. Love, Polly Cummings ( Wings Neck)

Nick,

I think about you constantly. I don’t sit here and fret, although I must admit that at times it gets hard to stay positive when I consider your fall. What goes through my head almost constantly is a wonderful dialectic between past and future. One week ago I was climbing up around Red Rocks in Gloucester. We had just received about a foot of snow and I was trudging through it, taking in lungfulls of clean, cool air and ruminating upon last year when you and I hauled our old snowboards up there after one our winter storms. Even though we had some snow the cover was thin; we didn’t care, we were on old gear and just wanted to fly down those rocks, make the turn at the bottom, get onto the trail and just feel, if only for a moment, that uplifting surge when one is gliding over the snow. I thought about that rock face with very little cover and your words, “Once you’re on that face you just have to stick it, there’s not enough snow to turn until the runout.” I then began thinking about our trips to the farmhouse in Vermont; the adventure of plummeting through the trees, the sublime, wonderful conversations while sitting around a fire afterwards. But then, instead of being sad, I had this tremendous sense of relief. I thought not of the past, but of the future. I had vivid thoughts about all that is to come. I saw you, in my minds eye, flying through the trees again. I look forward to skiing Yosemite’s back-country with you and I look forward to our sharing a cup of Hu-Kwa again soon. I also was remembering countless hours spent on that porch down in Cape Cod. Those days when our largest concern was whether or not the breeze was going to fill in are firmly entrenched in my memory and I know there will be plenty more just like that.

The amount of love being sent your way is amazing; but of course it is- you love life and people and experience so much and, in return, we all love you that much. You have a positive effect everywhere you go and you, by caring and loving and being Nick have changed our lives. On Friday night I saw Shane, Jacob and Josh Miller at the Lizard Lounge in Cambridge and then, later in JP, Brian, Dani, Kaleb and Sheryl. We sat around and talked and talked and talked about you. Your energy has changed this world and this world needs change; we all look forward so very much to your return to this corporeal realm. We miss you and love you so very much. We were talking about the Nantucket clambake and the vision of you in my mind was not one in the past, but was a vision of the future. Take your time my friend, use that incredible love and amazing mind to heal yourself, and we’ll see you in a little while.

I love you Nicholas, get well soon,

Will

This is Deborah and George. Nicholas is working on his staph infection; the neurosurgeon and the other doctors say they have plenty of ammunition to control it if the current drug doesn’t work. He has been resting a lot, but there are times he seems almost to be aware that we are talking to him. Be thinking of him on Thursday (Wednesday in the US)

D. and G.

We took some time the other day to pay a quick visit to The Hillary Exhibit (Mt. Everest) at the local museum. The thought the following quote from Sir Edmund was very appropriate:

I have had the world lie beneath my clumsy boots and saw the red sun slip over the horizon after the dark Antarctic winter.

I have been given more than my share of excitement, beauty, laughter and friendship.

But for me the most rewarding moments have not always been the great moments - for what can surpass a tear on your departure, joy on your return or a trusting hand in yours?

This is posted by Nicholas’ bed. Peter

Nicholas has been moved to a quieter area of the ICU in hopes of allowing him a little more rest. We have been instructed to establish more of a visiting routine so he can get into a pattern of “wake & sleep". So, from 12:00n to 2:00pm daily will be his rest time, which he needs. This is good.

We just had a meeting with the full medical team attending to Nicholas and a decision was made to schedule a duel operation on Thursday to replace his cranial bones and repair numerous facial factures. The neursurgeon & facial surgeon will be operating in consort. It will be about a 6 to 7 hour operation but all agree it’s in his best interest for numerous reasons. The sooner these opertions are done, the sooner a determination can be made regarding his ability to be flown back to the U.S. We are feeling very positive with our decision to proceed. And, this is also good. Peter & Lucy

My dear friend Nick,
As you slumber, take comfort in the sound of the loving voices of your family. They are with you corporeally as I am with you in spirit. I dream of you almost every night. You appear in dreamscapes so real I am not even aware that I am dreaming. We joyfully surf, ski and ruminate about the universe untill I rememer, almost as an afterthought , what happened. I exclaim, “Nick, shouldn’t we tell everyone your okay?” and you turn to me with a crooked smile and glint in your eye and say, “they already know…” Only then do I realize that I am in a dreamstate and wake up with the gleeful sound of your laughter dancing in my ears. These dreams are so real and fantastic and have such an impact on my waking life that I alternatly despair with the thought that we my never hike the glacier at Mt. Hood again, and delight in the knowledge that you are alive and well whether you decide to stay here or not. For my own selfish reasons, and for the others who read this and whose lives here enhanced by knowing you, I beg of you, STAY WITH US NICK!
I am sure that our last meeting was indeed not our LAST meeting. I remember clearly the sight of you disappearing into SFO to catch the plane to New Zealand. Your purposeful stride that says ‘I’m Nick and I’m HERE, wanna play?’. I remember our characteristically frank and deep conversation on the drive there; the gravity of which seems greatly increased in light of your recent twist of fate. When I related the events of the Solstice Soire the night before, you summed it up succinctly with the thought, ‘we are only aware of how alive we are when we are also aware of how close we are to death’. Your accident makes me take pause: I think of all the times we tauntingly wagged our finger at death. After all, we’re invincible right? In one week last summer we drank, danced, jumped out of a plane, soaked in hotsprings, skiied a mighty melting glacier after everyone else was gone and swam in its frigid meltwater! In the course of another short period of time however, you fell out of a tree (after all that), I totalled my poor Mom’s car (thank you whoever invented the arbag) and our dear young friend Amelia broke herself skiing in the remote Austrian alps. We may be immortal, but our bodies are in fact quite fragile.
Our interactions always culminate in a giddy sense of unexplored and unbounded possibility. You remind me of what is great about myself and I see those things in you too. You are a clear reflection of what I like about myself. I remember lamenting on the drive back from the airport how you were so incredibly busy, that the only time we had in recent months to sit and talk one on one was in the car. Your focus on your work is so intense. You could scarcely look up from the piles of videos, DVD’s and packages you were rapidly and expertly labeling untill the moment of departure. The world should see Anathema. Moreover, we should all see the works of beauty and intelligence that are still inside that inscutible red head of yours. You have just hit your stride, Nick. So come back friend, you have so much more to give.

Love,
J.P. Love

Nick, Peter & Lucy,
Our thoughts are with you (Baird, Beth & Me).. We have been through this and know exactly how scary and uncertain it all is. If my experiences will be of any use to you please email at rfulweil@suffolk.edu I’m sending all possible positive vibes your way.
Becky

Nicholas,
Hello from Myranda & Jay in Manchester. We have read through these amazing words of support and love and add our very best wishes, thoughts and prayers to them. It is very evident to us what a remarkable man you are Nicholas and all of the positive energy you have sent out to the universe will come back to you as a healing force. We are looking forward to having you home. We think about you and your family every day.
With love, Myranda & Jay Somers

Hello, all! Nick’s little sister, Fiona, here. This is the last day of my cruise to Key West and Mexico. It has been a lot of fun, and although it has been difficult to board a ship only a week after Nick’s accident, I think it has been good for me.

The site looks great. It’s important to stay connected now. Nicholas is my McGyver. Somewhere in his head those smarts are swirling around. Hopefully they will come back together to pull him through this one.

To everyone posting on this site, take care.

I’m Sheila’s (Peter’s sister) husband so I guess that makes me Nicholas’ uncle. Since I married into this unusually gifted family I’ve often wondered about Nick and what makes him tick. That I may never know makes him seem all the more fascinating. I believe in restorative powers as I suffered a potentially paralyzing trauma to the head this past summer from a 30 foot dive into five feet of water (yes, I’m the intellectually inferior member of the clan). There’s a force inside that wills one to live and recover and I’m guessing that Nicholas has more of this mo-jo than the average bloke. He will recover and he will continue to set and exceed his goals, although the process may take a different road..but so what? He’s just going to surprise us again!!
Godspeed to you lad.

Arch

Allan and I want to thank everyone who has written to Nicholas to wish him a good and speedy recovery. Our hearts go out to all of Nichols’ family members who will be sticking by his side for the duation of his recovery. May God, in His mercy, heal Nicholas. May Nicholas survive to do really good works in His name.
Love, JoAnn and Allan Corcoran (Nicholas’ Aunt and Uncle)

Greg & Caroline Gross here:

Nick, you’re a new acqaintence for me, but I have known your parents for some time in a variety of ways, having met your father on a foredeck many years ago. It is clear that you have touched a lot of people in pretty convincing ways, and as I read through what people have written, I am impressed. I particularly like the business about skidding into the finish with champagne in one hand and strawberries in the other whooping about the quality of the ride. Another little steadying thought came to my mind as I read all the affectionate endorsements of your life, and it’s present hassles, that seemed to not only identify and evoke you, but also many of the people who have you on their minds now. Hunter Thompson had a fictional attorney named Raoul Duke who guarded him in his Gonzo antics as he swerved hooting and hollering through the Fear and Loathing landscape. The comforting words of Raoul Duke in the worst of times have always lifted my spirits, and I hope they might lift yours, and those of the people who love you.

“When the going gets weird,. . . .the weird turn pro.”

Raoul Duke
awb Hunter Thompsen

This deal is weird, but it seems clear that you and all around you have definitely turned pro. You are in our thoughts and we’ll want a full report upon your return from this particular sortie. All best.

Greg Gross

SUNDAY, January 16 at noon

Nicholas, I met you when you were only three years old. A tussled head of red hair and a great smile. You were so full of energy but more distinctive to you – full of questions.

I remember that “Ludy” would spend lots of time with you just before bedtime. Usually she would read stories and then you and “Ludy” would just talk. One time, you kept asking question after question and finally “Ludy” had to put a limit on it so she said, “OK, Nicholas’, just one more question and then you go to sleep.” So, you did ask just one more question: “How did the universe start?”

Well, I hope that when you get back and return to us from these travels that you will know how the universe started, and will share that knowledge with us all.

Nicholas, we are all praying for you and longing for your return. There is so much love out there for you and I know in my heart that you must feel it.

Your Aunt Marge, (Lucy’s sister from Hartford)

The following is taped to my frig and I think it describes Nicholas’ life and attitude!

Life should NOT be a journey to the grave with the intention of arriving safely in an attractive and well-preserved body; but rather to skid in sideways, champagne in one hand, strawberries in the other, body thoroughly used up, totally worn out and screaming,
” WOO HOO - What a Ride!!”

Dear Nick,
I do not know you, but I know your father’s family well….therefore I know that you come from a line of huge strength , determination and FEISTINESS. Having read the wonderful letters on this site I have learned that you also have a generous and loving spirit…this is your greatest strength.
My whole family sends love and healing thoughts to you and your family.
Lisa Field Eustis

I read the letters every day and continue to be overwhelmed by the love for my nephew. It is no surprise that he has touched so many folks and I want to thank all of you for sending the energy to help him heal. And Honor: thanks for the medical aspect of Nicholas’ condition as it makes it easier for me to visualize him. I know he will return to us in some way although the waiting is often unbearable. Printed photos from the gallery are taped all over the house so that wherever I go, I can see his image.
Sheila

Honor has filled you in on the latest details.

The hospital is about the best place I can imagine for Nicholas to be in these circumstances. He has a nurse all the time all to himself, and the nurses are busy ministering to him every minute with great care and affection, and the various doctors are wonderful. In this regard we are very, very lucky. (See the posts from the staff.)

Keep plugging for him. It is really encouraging to us to read all the messages to Nicholas. This is what he would want, and I hope some day he can read them himself directly.

Love to you all,
George and Deborah

Nicky—hows it going brother man!—-Its Kanguroo here or Romero, whatever you decide is appropriate. I just wanted to give you an exciting update on our Costa Rica project. So I have gone ahead to get Luis, the architect to draw up some preliminary site plans so that we can move closer to seeing our dream realized down there in paradise. Yeah bro!!!! I imagine you are out there surfing the great unknown to glean valuable information from the ethers. I have had some great conversations with you in my dreams, so thanks for coming to visit. I miss your physical presence, but you are nonetheless totally present in my world. I have been working hard to complete our latest album project and then I will be off to Kauai on the first of February. Thats right my man, hopefully I will catch some good swell. You know the invitation still stands for you to come and chill on the islands with me. I will be there until March 6 and there is always a space for you. Lets go catch some surf, Kauai style!!! Until then I will see you in dreamtime and patiently await your return to the more earthly realms. Oh by the way, I have decided to move my ass to San Francisco sometime in the next year, so I can’t wait to see more of your ass. We will be undoubtedly continuing our experiments in living life to the fullest. Lets talk soon, OK? Love you!!!!!—–MK

For those who don’t know me, I am the girlfriend of Colin (one of Nicholas’ brothers).

I just wanted to share some thoughts. Although I have not spent much time with Nicholas, his personality and spirit are so strong and contagious that I feel as though I have. I read a comment from his sister Pamela that said it made her smile to think about what a wonderful night Nicholas was having up until his accident. When I read about his night, it made me really happy to know what he had been up to. Before this, all I had known was that he fell out of a tree, but even with the shock and sadness, given what I know of Nicholas I thought to myself fondly “of course he did.”
One thing that really strikes me is how strongly I can feel about a person whom I hardly spent time with. He clearly has such a positive effect on everyone he comes in contact with. I have been thinking about him constantly and sending him positive thoughts, and will continue to do so. He is such a happy, life-loving person and definitely strong enough to come out of this.
I took part in the global meditation on Tuesday, and felt really strongly about it. I never meditate, and was actually feeling a little shy/nervous about the whole thing. I was in the middle of a really awful day at work, and I printed out the picture of Nicholas and excused myself and went to a nearby park to sit. I watched my clock hit 3pm (LA time) and I counted backwards from 30 to relax myself, and just started talking to Nick in my head. It was a really great feeling to know how many other people were doing the same thing and I felt connected to him and everyone else. Before I knew it 15 minutes had passed and I slowly walked back to work feeling really happy and refreshed. I hope that the same energy that I felt was translated to him.
All my love to Nick, his family and friends,
Hillary

Will - Thanks for the photos. Much appreciated and the ICU Ward has been viewing them with interest.

Meanwhile we just had the compelling urge to comment on the great treatment both Nick & the attending family has been receiving from everyone in Ward 5A. We couldn’t be more pleased with their spirit of cooperation & positive personalities. It’s wonderfully infectious & definitely effects all of us. Nick’s friends all around the world should take great comfort in this. Peter & Lucy

Hello All,

This is Honor, one of Nicholas’ sisters, writing from New Zealand. Thanks to everyone who has been writing and sending their thoughts to Nick over this last week- it has made a huge difference (and thanks to Colin for organizing this site)! I thought I would just get an overview of Nicholas’ medical status up onto the site so that everyone can share the same big picture. As is the case with all traumatic brain injuries the most important message is that the long term outcome is impossible to predict at this point. It will become clearer only as the next weeks and months unfold.

That being said, at present Nicholas is in a deep coma (for those with a medical background his glascow score is 5 and was 3 at presentation). A repeat cat scan on the 13th showed that his brain is still very swollen from the initial trauma. The neurosurgeon thinks it will be another 10 days before the swelling goes down. He has had his forehead bone removed to allow for relief of the pressure from the swelling and once the swelling goes down they will replace it. In addition to the diffuse swelling there is an area where he actually hit his head (in the right frontal lobe) where the brain tissue has died. What this means in terms of Nick’s functioning is again really difficult to say. Some people have relatively little functional change from large areas of damage while others have large deficits from seemingly small injuries. Nick’s recovery could be anywhere along the spectrum and there is the small chance that he might not wake up. Also the waking process itself is slow and gradual, rather than something that will suddenly happen in one day.

Not much is known about deep comas or about what Nick is capable of hearing or understanding. He probably will not remember any of this and is probably unaware of what is happening to him at this point. He does respond to stimulation, however- voices, music, or a painful stimulus all make his heart rate and blood pressure go up and make his eyes open a bit more. He has a sleep- wake cycle with his eyes closed or open, respectively, but “awake” is not awake in the sense that we are used to.

In terms of movement he moves his right arm quite a bit spontaneuosly, coughs, occasionally blinks, roves his eyes around, wiggles his mouths, yawns and if you pinch his left arm or toes he will withdraw them slightly.

For breathing he has a tube in and though he breathes on his own he receives minimal support from a respirator. The goal is to slowly wean him off of the respirator and switch from the tube to a tracheotomy (hopefully within the next week). Though he is breathing on his own he will need to have either the breathing tube or a tracheotomy to protect his airway until he is much more awake.

Because he isn’t moving around and he has invasive lines going into his body he is at risk for a number of infections. He is recovering well from a bout of pneumonia, but as of this morning he has a new blood infection (coag neg staph) . Today they will change his arterial line in case that is the source of the infection and will start new antibiotics (Vanco, gent and flucoxacillin (?)). (Currently only has a subclavian central line, and a foley in. He had two chest tubes and a ventricular catheter which were all removed 5 days ago. Sinuses looked fine on CT 1/13).

Other injuries include fractures of the cervical spine, the thoracic spine (T2), and a few fractures of his cheekbones. There is no spinal cord damage which is apparent at this point and the cervical and thoracic spine fractures will heal on their own in 6 weeks or so. Until then he needs to wear a neck brace and be turned carefully in bed so as not to tweak his thoracic fracture. The facial fractures will need to be repaired at some point and since they will require 5 hours of surgery this step will happen much later.

That’s about all I can think of for now. Nicholas looks better every morning and is in great hands here. Keep the thoughts and support coming until he’s able to come home.

Honor

Hi All…

I thought I would take this time to share with you all the story of what Nicholas had been up to the night of his accident. I spoke to Jamie (the kid he was with when it happened who was also one of our guides on a 3 day trek we did over New Years..leave it to Nicholas to make a new friend) and he was able to tell me in detail the amazing night they had shared together. So here goes…

Nicholas and Jamie had been having a wicked night (yea i’m talking like a Kiwi now..that means good, not bad). Nicholas was Mr. Social and met all of Jamie’s friends and Jamie and Nicholas had decided to head up north to the Roots Music Festival the following week. They were getting along really well and just having a wonderful night. Nicholas was dancing and talking to everyone. So on the way home Jamie told Nicholas about this tradition of climbing a tree and carving initials. It was sunrise and Nicholas climbed to the top really fast and I guess he was at the top screaming and laughing bc he was so into the moment and the view of seeing sunrise over Queenstown….the lake and the mountains. Then he climbed down to Jamie who was 3/4 way up the tree. They both had been sitting there for a while just chillin’ and talking and really having a wonderful appreciation for where they were and what was going on..with sunrise and the night they’d had and the adventures they had in store. Anyway..Nicholas descended first and the rest..well, you know that. It was such a perfect Nicholas- living -in- the -moment kinda night. It brings a smile to my face..which is a tricky task these days.

Just thought you’d appreciate that.
Pamela

(To those of you not part of Nicholas’s family and don’t know us, we are friends from Marblehead, MA where the Robbins lived for a long time.)

Marblehead is working on positive prayers and thoughts for Nicholas’s healing and recovery. You’re all such a long way away, but fortunately with venues such as this, we can share our hearts and love with you all. It is truly a godsend that you are in New Zealand with such wonderful caregivers. Love- Westy and Julie

Click on the photo gallery link on the right or go directly to nicksrecovery.com/gallery. From there you can look at photos that have been posted. Or you can register and create your own album where you can add photos. This may be a little tricky for some users so if you have some photos that you want some help with getting posted let me know. (colin@macnaughton.com)

I’ve posted some photos already.

For those that want to try it on their own do the following:
-Register at http://nicksrecovery.com/gallery
-Choose ‘new album’
-Then select ‘add photos’ from the drop down box. (Make sure your browser isn’t blocking popups)
-Click the ‘form’ tab and choose the photos you want to upload (anything larger than 1mb won’t work).

If you have a lot of photos the best thing to do is this:
1. Upload the photos to my ftp site.
-Open your browser and go to ftp://ftp.macn.net/nicholas/photos
-Create a new folder by right clicking and choosing new folder.
-Copy your photos and paste into the new folder.
2. Add photos same steps as above but after choosing ‘add photos’ click the ‘URL’ tab
-In the url tab type http://www.macn.net/nicholas/photos/
(your-folder-name is the folder you created in the first step.
-Click the submit button and follow the wizard through.
-Really make sure your browser isn’t blocking popups.

Hey Nick-
Some Cd’s on the way. As we have spoken about many times, music heals all wounds to soul, spirit, and body. I am sure these will invoke the glory of memories past and inspire you in the magnificent days ahead. You are in our music.

Stay golden
-jay sweet

To Nicholas and his family,

Love and best wishes for a full recovery.

Jeff & Dale Milne

dear nick, may your recovery be quick and complete. God bless you. from sam, a friend of your aunt, sheila weathers

I want to thank all of you for sending your love and positive energy to Nicholas. It is hard to be so far away from him and his family (I’m in NH) but Peter sends updates every day. We all know just how special Nicholas is and now we’ll learn just how strong he is.
Sheila, Nicholas’ aunt

Hi, I’m Jo. One of Nicholas’s nurses here in New Zealand.
What a sad cirumstance to make contact, but I think
your site for him is really awesome and healing.
Nicholas has wonderful family who have been here
with him, helping to explain to him what is happening as we go along,
and he seems quite peaceful for it, the familiar, gentle voices will
be valuable.
I wish the weeks will bring many great achievements for Nicholas.
Best wishes, Jo.

This is Nick’s father, Peter, checking-in and most pleased that this site is available for many reasons. Lucy & I have found excellent living facilities in Dunedin and anticipate being here for the next 2 months. Hopefully, we’ll be able to bring Nick home earlier but we’re keeping expectations in check. We will do our vry best to send a daily update. Cheers to all. Peter

Hey all, not too much to report. I’ll quote from Honor:

“I just saw Nicholas and he’s looking pretty good this morning. His eyes were open more than usual and he was blinking, with lots of movement of his right arm. His pneumonia is improving but he’s still spiking temps so perhaps there’s another infection somewhere or it’s just second to the brain injury itself. the goal over the next two days is to wean him off of the respirator, though they’ll keep the breathing tube in place just in case. next week they hope to convert him to a tracheostomy tube. “

Also this page is now accessible from plain old http://nicksrecovery.com (at least in boston … who knows how long it will take domain name to propagate to NZ or elsewhere)

I’m glad to see people are registering don’t be shy about posting!

Hello everyone…

For those of you who don’t know me, I’m Nicholas’ sister from the Robbins side of things. I’m with him now in NZ. Honor and I are getting ready to head back the States tomorrow. I think it’s going to be difficult to leave but he is under the most AMAZING care here. The doctors and nurses are wonderful and positive. We’ve told some of them about this site, so maybe they’ll send some comments once in a while. It’s been wonderful to read all of the letters to Nicholas. Sometimes I have to practice them so I don’t cry while I’m reading them, but it is a true joy to know how loved and appreciated Nicholas is outside of his family. He’s the most intersting person I know and I’m constantly bragging about him. I look forward to sharing stories about him and his recovery in the days to come. No doubt it will be a long road for all of us, but knowing he has such a great network of people with such strong beleifs in energy and the power of thought is very comforting to myself and I know to Nicholas as well…so keep it up!!!

Many thanks for the support and, most importantly, the continued positive energy. In less than one week it will just be my parents (Peter & Lucy) who will be with Nicholas physically and that will be draining so all the extra help is much appreciated.

Love to all,
Pamela

Todays global prayer circle was simply electrifying, and I hope that some of that common energy flowed to Nick. from Steve’s comments how it felt for him when we did a similar thing, and Marcella before her operation, every indication is that this is a very powerful tool for us to work together in yet another level to send our love and support to
Nick. I would support us doing this again every day at this time, or
if not every day, then every week on the same day/time.

Nick Morgan [nmorgan@igc.org]

For sending audio CDs. Not sure if our cd player supports mp3s yet.

Family of Nicholas Robbins
ICU, Dunedin Hospital
Great King St
DUNEDIN 9008
New Zealand

Peter and Lucy’s Apt (This is now a better place to send mail):

Peter & Lucy Robbins
c/o Woodlands Village #311
594 Great King Street
Dunedin, New Zealand

While we are waiting for CDs to arrive in the mail. Are there any CDs that you can think of that Nick would like. The family in NZ can pick it up for him.

This site is open to everyone. Clicking register on the right will allow you to create a username/password. Once you’ve done this you will be able to login and post your own messages.

I’ve currently created 4 basic categories from which you should choose when posting:
-Updates: Are what the family can use to send out status on nick’s condition.
-E-mail: If you send e-mail to blog@nicksrecovery.com your messages will show up here, (I have to work the kinks out so hold off on this for now).
-General: Just for talking. To keep things organized you can add comments to any post that some one makes.
-Benefit Concert: The idea has been floated that a benefit concert be put together. Money raised could help pay for the costs of getting Nick extracted to the states.
-Info: Stuff about the site. Post any ideas or comments on the site here.

What other categories. Let me know if you have any ideas … I’ll add them.

I’m am currently trying to work out a way in which we can easily share photos. This is currently supported as an option to upload when you login, but it is not very intuitive and is a little bit of a hassle. The site this is hosted on has about a gigabit of space so I’ll be working to make photo sharing easier.

I will also be working on getting previous e-mails posted on the site so that we have a complete record. For those of you that have sent letters to Nick through me, I’ll ask if you mind it being posted.

Please e-mail me anytime with questions on the site: colin@macnaughton.com

The latest word from the doctors is that nick might be ready for extraction as early as 4-5 weeks from now. They are also saying that there is still a very good chance that he will come out of the coma - though there is still a chance that he won’t come out of it.

Some other small updates from Honor:

“other small updates- they’re taking the stitches/staples out of his head right now. his breathing is good, still battling the pneumonia, swelling of the brain will go down over the next two weeks and at that point they’ll think about putting his bone plates back in. his hand was not broken.”

That’s all for now.

Greetings all,

I mentioned Nick’s name during the prayers at Tuesday’s gathering but wanted to mention it to the larger sangha out there in cyber space.

Nick is a beloved friend of many of my good friends. He had an injury to the head while traveling in New Zealand and has been in a coma ever since. The beauty of it are the stories, love and support that has been pouring out for this beautiful soul. It is still unknown the damage of the fall.

Please include Nick in your daily prayers and visualize the healing light of the Buddhas entering his skull and descending through his body completely healing and purifying all ailments and past karma. Please visualize his skull, spinal cord, and his whole being healed.

A group worldwide will be gathering this evening at 6pm for a group meditation for Nick. I know its last minute but if you receive this please turn your positive thoughts and the powerful prayers of the Buddhas towards him.

Below is a little reflection that came my way on the power of prayers and positive vibration. We all know the mind is a powerful thing and that prayers work. Science is just catching up.

With love,
Greta

Power Vs Force

Years ago a fellow healer asked me if I thought we
really made a difference, or was all the work we do
in vain? I responded yes! I’ve always known deep
inside me that all healing and love-based
communication makes a shift in awareness.
Yesterday I read a book that validates all I have felt
for many years. “Power Vs Force", by David Hawkins, M.D.
is a must read if you are anyone who helps to heal
the planet. Hawkins uses kinesiology as an interface
between the world of the physical and the world of
the mind and spirit. He measures energy and how it
relates to a person’s level of consciousness - their
emotions, perceptions, attitudes, world views and
spiritual beliefs.
The critical response point in the scale of conscious-
ness calibrates at level 200, which is the level
associated with integrity and courage. All attitudes,
feelings and thoughts below that make a person weak,
or stuck in personal survival. For example, shame
vibrates at 20, guilt at 30, apathy at 50, grief at
75, fear at 100, anger 150, and pride at 175.
As one crosses the demarcation between negative and
positive influence into courage, the well-being of
others becomes increasingly important. By the 500
level, the happiness of others emerges as the
essential motivating force. The level measuring in
the 500’s - love and joy - is characterized by
interest in spiritual awareness for both oneself
and others. By the 600’s, peace, the good of man-
kind and the search for enlightenment are the
primary goals. For those people resonating in the
highest level, 700 to 1000, one’s life is dedicated
to the salvation of all of humanity.
All of our emotions run up and down the scale,
depending on what is happening around us. As we
become more aware, we choose to live in a way that
lets us hold compassion and acceptance for all
around us. Things that used to make us angry bother
us less and less. We are able to find neutrality
and forgiveness for each other instead of punishing
and judging others for their mistakes.
The part of Hawkins book that wowed me the most was
the effect we have on all of those around us. One
individual vibrating at 700 counter balances
70 million individuals vibrating below level 200.
That was enough to make me take pause for the rest
of the day. Every time we turn our attention inward
and meditate or pray, we help all the people around us
to find enough courage to take a step. What a powerful
way to make a positive difference in the world,
right from your home.
One individual at 600, (those who hold Light for world
peace) counter balances 10 million people under 200.
One person at 500, counter balances 750,000 people;
one person at 400, helps 400,000 people and one person
at 300 helps 90,000. Twelve individuals at 700 equals
having one avatar at 1,000 on the planet. David Hawkin’s
research made my day.
So, if you’ve ever wondered about the power of positive
thoughts, here is accurate proof of the affect we have
on the world. Smile inside, we are all making a
difference!

Namaste.

i knew nick briefly through a friend and his circle of friends and ive gotten emails about his accident and updates

it sorrows my heart

i didnt know him well but in the time that i did he was so warm, friendly and good hearted i hope he heals and that he can live an active healthy life and that his and all our suffering be minimizedget well nick

peace

pete

Just a thought: what if you guys got some Mp3 player and loaded stuff on to it periodically for Nick? We could put voice letters on some server up here (I’m sure you have space, as do I), you could download stuff he liked to listen to such as the news on NPR, Science Friday, etc. on to it and play it for him. That way when he wakes up he won’t have as much catch-up to do with current events.

I think of Nick and you and your family constantly,

Send everyone my love.

Will

And so it shall be!

Global meditation and prayer for Nick.

Thursday 6pm EST, 3pm PST, 12 noon New Zealand, 10am AUS, 7am Bali, 6am Bangkok.

Thank you Jamie! If we do it on Thurday it will have been one week since he fell. It is important to keep momentum here, and the sooner the better, even though notice is a bit short, but also better before the weekend. Everyone give a call to people who don’t check email much.

The sun will be directly over Nick at noon! Use a picture, a visual memory, your imagination! Send him white light, visualize him healing, especially in the head area. 5-10 mins?

Let’s all go by this clock: http://www.timeanddate.com/worldclock/custom.html?sort=1

More information to follow, anyone have anything to add?

This will be a truly wonderful feeling, feel you then, love…Shane

Hi everyone.

I just got home and checked my email after the “Jamcruise” gig where I was not able to be on line. I just got all the past updates in a matter of minutes.

Now that I know about it I have trained my thoughts on manifesting change in Nick’s consciousness. We know for a fact that this type of action can have real effects.

I have been studying physics and keeping up with a lot of the latest discoveries. All things point toward the fact that we are all connected by consciousness. This group of people can collectively manifest very specific change by all focusing on the same thought.

Perhaps we could pick a specific time to all concentrate on helping Nick to shift his consciousness from one level to another.
Since we are scattered across time zones all over the world, maybe we can do it in the late eve. For the USA people and late morn. For the New Zealand people.
If there is anything else that might help let me know.

Perhaps ZILLA could do a benefit show to help with the hospital costs?
Is he insured?

My thoughts are with Nick and with all of the folks on this email list.

Peace, Jamie J

j@jamiejanover.com

http://www.jamiejanover.com
http://www.realmmusic.com
http://www.photorealms.com
http://www.zillamusic.com
http://www.zuvuya.com
http://www.everyoneorchestra.com

Realm Music /
Photo Realms /
ZILLA Inc.
PO Box 7945
Boulder, CO
80303 USA

Hey everyone,
I’ve put some pics of Nico on my ftp server; click below. These are screen resolution, if anyone wants a printable version of any of them email me.

Send Nick love and energy!

Will

ftp://shell.shore.net/members/w/b/wbw/

I’m sure we all have stories about Nick and his incredible mind, I have about one million of them, probably more.

To see one small example of Nick’s brainpower check out http://www.shore.net/~wbw. This is the biobarge website. The biobarge is something I designed (click on “history” for the full story) but would have never made it off the drawing board if Nick wasn’t at my side. His mind is so powerful, so full of positive energy that I know right now he’s hard at work fixing any internal damage he sustained.

Peace, love,

Will

The succinct facts as well as I could remember.
Nick has been off the drugs keeping him asleep for 20hrs or so and is still in a coma. In his slumber he has moved his foot, squeezed his hand, and moved his tougue, so he’s probably not paralyzed. He has some fuild in his lungs which is being sucked with a tube.
He is on a respirator to help him breathe and save his energy but he could breathe on his own, breaths are very shallow. His temperature has gone up a bit which is common when the body starts to take over and recover. His face is very swollen. The piece of scalp that was removed is relieving the pressure or brain swell. The impact was above his temple on one side. He has fractured is neck and spine but not broken it (due to the ninja landing technique used ). All in all he doing well, and no shattering bad news.

The important thing to be aware of now is that we won’t know the full extent of any mental injury for days or probably weeks after he wakes up. It will take time to first heal and then evaluate. When he wakes they will have to put him under again to make sure he doesn’t hurt himself, move too fast, or gag on the tube in his throat. He will have to stay in the hospital in Dunedin for 3 weeks. Both sides of his family are there with him, his brother Colin is in Boston manning the phones through which I get all my updates.

Note: 3 people have said to have vivid dreams of Nick the day this happened.

I have added the only picture I could find on my hard drive of him. It helps me to have an fresh mental image while meditating and sending white light.

he’s going to be OK,
trusting,
Shane

P.S. To add to some of the beautiful responses replied, I’d like to include an exerpt of well said words from our friend Tim O’Shea

“Tim [tMo]”
Subject: Re: PRAY FOR NICK - update #2

Shane –
…We all savor the energy of adventure and open minded embracing of the unknown. We know that there is always the potential for and certainly the thrill of risk. But a life without risk is a life without love and laughter. If we don’t climb atop the trees both proverbial and real, we are never acquainted with that most holy of views from the perch of new perspective. And the air is so sweet up there. Nick, like the rest of us, breathes deep and full.
The challenge in a time like this is to accept with equal spirit the lessons of the ground as we do the lessons learned on high. Nick has more to share, just as we will have more to share with him. Positive vibrations and an appreciation for living well the life we are given afford an immortality in the time that we are here….

Healing, Happiness and Harmony.

TiMO

Nick is in a coma.
He was hanging out with a newly befriended paragliding guide sometime after jumping. A tradition there in Queenstown NZ is to climb a tall tree in town and carve your initials in the top. He had done that (successfully of course) and on the way down he passed
2 other guys waiting for him in the tree. Perhaps he had to step around them onto a smaller branch but they heard a crack and a branch broke from under him. He fell 30ft, and landed on his head in some way.
Luckily a doctor was walking by right after it happed, so medics were quick to the scene. He was totally unconscious and has brain swell from the impact, and has a few broken bones and dislocated shoulder. His spinal chord looks OK, so he might have escaped being paralyzed. The doctors have since put him under on sedatives to let the swelling go down and so he won’t hurt himself. They have taken a small portion of his scalp off to monitor his brain swell and bloodflow (which is lower than normal) His sister (in med
school) said this could end up to be the worst or a minor injury, it’s just a matter of time. The doctors will keep him under for 2 or 3 days to let the swelling go down and then take him off sedatives to see if he responds (wakes up).

He was traveling with one side of his family for the holidays when this happened. The other half is traveling from Boston to NZ tomorrow. I am in touch with them and will update you asap.

Whew what a day, thanks for all your calls, they give us all strength, and I’ve passed on your good wishes to his family.

Nick is a super bro and needs us now. Please send him love and positive energy. I’m sure he’s out there is some dimension and needs some company…

blessings,
Shane

— Shane Bediz wrote:
TO ALL FRIENDS OF NICK ROBBINS

NICK IS IN THE SOUTH ISLAND OF NEW ZEALAND, HE TOOK A BAD FALL AND LANDED ON HIS HEAD. NOT MUCH IS KNOWN AT THIS POINT. HE WAS AIRLIFTED TO A LARGER HOSPITAL IN DUNEDIN AND IS IN INTENSIVE CARE AND SURGERY. HE COULD BE IN A COMA OR JUST UNCONSCIOUS.

WE THINK HE’LL BE OK, BUT THIS IS SERIOUS. PLEASE TAKE A MOMENT TO SEND HIM SOME PRAYERS, THE COLLECTIVE POWER WE HAVE TO HELP HIM IS HUGE, AND WE ALL LOVE THE GUY.

PLEASE FORWARD TO WHOMEVER APPROPRIATE, AS I SENT THIS QUICKLY. I’M IN SF, GOING UP TO HIS PLACE TO GET HIS INSURANCE PAPERS. I’LL BE IN TOUCH AS SOON AS I KNOW ANYTHING.

WITH LOVE VIBES
SHANE

978-884-2006

From Thelma MacNaughton

John just called and told us that Nicholas is in the hospital in New Zealand. If you need to have any help I am only an email away and would come to Andover. You and the rest of the family will do well in a crisis but sometimes it is nice to have another helper. Know that all will be in my prayers tonight and keep us posted as to what is going on. Do you know where he is in New Zealand. I have some friends there who might be of help to your Mom and Dad. I love all of you, The Grandmother

This is crushing news.

I will add him to my lengthening list of people to pray for.

And the list above is, taken collectively, a powerfully brilliant spiritual light. If we can’t bring our dear brother back from this terrible sleep - and bring him back as himself - nothing’s going to.

This seems so odd. Only a few hours ago I was reading a beautiful e-mail he sent me on Thursday morning, which said, among other things:

>I’m sorry to hear about Amelia, yet I must confess to a perverse sense
>of relief. Several days ago I had a dream that you had shuffled off
>these four mortal dimensions. And while I was sure that, within the
>context, you were fine with it, I had that selfish human reaction that
>I wanted to hang with you a bit more before you moved on. Now, hearing
>of Amelia’s unfortunate fall, I have some sort of justification for the
>dream.

It now appears there was more behind this dream than Amelia’s fall…

It reminds of an incident that happened years ago with my father.
Following a massive heart-attack, he flat-lined and was clinically dead for a few minutes before we were able to jump-start him with the electric paddles. When he finally came to, he looked up at me with surprised delight and exclaimed, “Why, John Perry, are *you* still alive?” It’s a matter of perspective, I guess.

If Nick crosses that Rubicon, he may be “fine with it,” but I want to hang with him a lot more before he moves on.

Stricken,

Barlow

Man seriously injured in Queenstown tree fall

07.01.05 11.45am

A 34-year-old San Francisco man is in Dunedin Hospital with life-threatening head injuries after falling 10 metres from a tree in Queenstown this morning.
Queenstown Ambulance manager Colin Robson said they had been called to the address in central Queenstown at 7.35am.
The man had fallen from about three-quarters of the way up the tree, sustaining serious head injuries. “His mate was also still up the tree when we got there,” said Mr Robson.
“We told him to stay where he was.”
The other man was uninjured and was later helped down by members of the public.
Mr Robson could not say at this stage why the men had climbed the tree.
The injured man was stabilised at Lakes District Hospital before being flown to Dunedin by the Lakes District Rescue Helicopter.
Police also attended the accident.
- NZPA